Friday, 30 December 2011

last for this year.

Signs of a hypocrite

when he speaks, he lies
when he is being argued with, he explodes
whenever he is being entrusted with something, he violates that trust
whenever he promises, he goes back on his promise

khutbah ari jumat. hoho..Just something to ponder on actually.

Anyway, my final exam for finally to finish my second year which is like forever, is just 9 days away. I slept for 10 hours straight last night and woke up scared and panicking. Lol.

I will be celebrating my New Year of 2012 with books and a mug of hot tea to accompany me, and of course, with the sound of fireworks that will be lighted up by my neighbours.

and again, my thousands apology to you and may I along with my fellow friends pass our second year..umm.. gracefully.


Wednesday, 21 December 2011


Instead of educating the youngsters, blame is put on them. Threats are being made. Yet, questions are being asked on how this generation is going to lead and teach the future generations, when actually the old ones are not doing their responsibility. Responsibility to show the young what is wrong and what is right. why is it wrong and why is it right. what should we do when we are in the wrong and the actions to take when we are in the right.

but sadly, kena tumbuk dan ludah. Haih.

Small things are considered big and the big things are considered small.

As Professor Hubert J. Fansworth said "I don't want to live in this planet anymore".

Sunday, 18 December 2011

being grateful

(Al Baqarah : 216)

Fighting has been enjoined upon you while it is hateful to you. But perhaps you hate a thing and it is good for you; and perhaps you love a thing and it is bad for you. And Allah Knows, while you know not.

Sunday, 27 November 2011

A splendid weather.

Well hello there.

It has been a while it seems. You know when every time you are facing difficulties there will always be a point where you really can not take it anymore and say screw it. I will not care anymore.

I have been there
again and again.

See.. I am not the brightest of all students. I need time to study and even that, I fail to memorise or comprehend what I have been reading. I know, that in this profession I am learning to be, persistence is what I need but it is so hard to concentrate. It is not me to read books everyday. I don't even read story books with that consistency. It is not me to always talk about medical stuff. It is not me to spontaneously answer questions thrown at me. My brain lacks in the speed of processing I guess. I sometimes doubt myself what really am I doing here really. Well if you have never ever question yourself  with what are doing right now well then good for you. I have doubted myself and have been feeling what a let down I am when I failed a paper. when I failed to answer a simple question. when people succeed making me feel like a complete loser just because I am not able to deliver an excellent answer.

but again and again,

having a good friend saying it's OK. we have all been there. you'll be good.
having a family saying things will get better. it will not always be like this. we love you.
having a complete stranger saying i pray to god you will be an excellent doctor that will be able to serve your country, your religion and your community.

is a comfort of some sort.

I hope I will be able to realize that I am lucky to have this opportunity and stop second guessing myself.

Salaam Maal Hijrah everyone.

Wednesday, 16 November 2011

ekjem ekjem.

What is love?
"What is love - we cannot talk about that.
What is not love - we can talk about. Love is not attachment, love is not
possession, love is not controlling somebody, love is not making use of
somebody, and love is not all that you conceive of. You cannot know love
but you can experience love.
The only thing that we can say is that it is unconditional. If you love
somebody just because somebody is good looking, somebody is wealthy or
popular or this or that, obviously that is not love. But if you're not able
to give any reason at all, then probably you have discovered love. That
love is unconditional and such love is not an imaginary love.
Thousands of people have discovered it and you can discover it. That is the
purpose of human existence. Otherwise life is worthless.
If you do anything to increase the love in you, you will never discover
love. If you could realize there is nothing you could do about it, that is
the beginning of love. In spirituality (in the internal world) the moment
you realize there is nothing you could do about it, that is the moment it
happens. As long as you keep trying, you will never ever get there.
Because that trying (in the internal world - not in the external world) is
the problem. That trying is the thing which takes you away from me.
When all seeking has stopped what is there is unconditional love.
This is what Dad mailed us, miles away. Anyway, I love you too papito.

Sunday, 6 November 2011

Esok raya..

It's Eid tomorrow.

I hope Mum and Dad are doing great over there. I hope my sisters and my little brother are doing OK at home without my parents to fuss over them. I sure do miss them so much. Since exam mood is kicking in again, everything looks very much enticing. A stupid gibberish article attracted me way more than reading medical books right now. Do you know that chewing too much sugar-free gum can cause chronic diarrhoea? Yeah.. I am that much of being distracted..


Eid Mubarak people! Have a good one and may Allah bless!

Pacik Malan and Macik Senah yang dirindui


Wednesday, 2 November 2011

Impian jangka pendek.

Saya nak balik, rehat-rehat, makan-makan, duduk -duduk baca buku sambil baring-baring, tengok TV, kacau ahli keluarga, keluar jalan-jalan, tak perlu memikirkan masalah kehidupan, gaduh-gaduh dengan adik beradik, jumpa kawan itu pun kalau cuti saya panjang sebab saya suka spend masa dengan keluarga bila masa cuti saya sekejap. Sebab ye lah keluarga mesti diutamakan. Sepuluh hari tak cukup wooooo..

Tuesday, 25 October 2011

Plugging in my ears..

Because the sound of firecrackers is really annoying. Suddenly out of nowhere a loud bang will set me to tachycardia. Diwali is tomorrow but my college is having really weird holiday schedule.

Well though I never really been out of contact with my family,the thing I miss most is having a conversation over the net with the webcam on. I am glad having whatsapp installed.. like I get their updates 24/7  but I just miss the webcam session.

Sunday, 23 October 2011

As of now..

The one place that fascinates me so much in an entirely different way is North Korea. It is interesting to see a country full of people that does not know much about us. The excess to internet is very limited and they are forbidden to travel outside the country. How ridiculous is that? I am not entirely sure whether they knew about Malaysia or not... even some people who have the tools of digging information also doesn't know of the existence of Malaysia. Singapore is better known than Malaysia is.. as far as meeting with strangers they will always say.."ohh Malaysia..the one near Singapore.. or Indonesia"

Anyway, I must one day set foot on North Korea.

It was so awkward speaking in public after years of not doing it. I miss those days really. My coherence in speaking is degrading very much I must say.

Thursday, 20 October 2011

being in a self reflective mode again.

Gaddafi is dead
and the one who killed him is an 18 year old. 

The ones who used to lead a battle of army back then was 17 years old or even younger. Can't remember really but I knew they were like really young.
but when we were 17 years old, we were so busy finding ourselves..or so they say..

Do you know Sultan Muhammad Al-Fatih was sent away to learn how to govern when he was only 11 years old? What did I do when I was eleven exactly? Main sep tiang or baling selipar, most likely..

Even this little guy has already collected 30 million dollars for charity and he is only 11.

Even now, being a 21 year old, I don't think I have any significant contributions. Pfft..

Tuesday, 18 October 2011

Monday, 17 October 2011


Going around the hospital today. Monday is officially my exercise day and it's hot like real hot today. Roaming around with a bag behind your back and wearing a thick white coat..uffff.

Something really sad when you see an old man or woman all tied up on a hospital bed, having real difficulty to gasp a breath.. Make me wonder if I ever going to be that way one day.. It is just so sad. Well, you never know the future, right?

Sunday, 16 October 2011

yet another very unproductive sunday.

I am so lazy nowadays.
and procrastination is almost becoming my last name. 

I think I should be Cal Lightman. or Patrick Jane. Easy making money like that.

Not that I want to have scarred and horrific past to become like them but you know, their skills are enviable enough.

Thursday, 13 October 2011

TGIF tomo!

I guess we forget once in a while. We are mere human. Even things intended to be jokes can bite us back in the back. When we say, "oh someone cannot take a joke" , we really should consider that. Yes living does not mean to please other people but may we not forget that we do not live just to please ourselves too. There are consequences we need to think of. So here's something I found interesting.. and my, I really need to check myself!!

11 Rules In Islam On Joking

Islam is a perfect religion it has set guidelines for everything, in every walk of life. Following the Sunnah of Rasulullah (SAW) is the key to everything and it shows us that Rasulullah (SAW)) used to smile and joke with his companions:
A man came to Rasulullah (SAW) and said: “Give me an animal to ride on” Rasulullah (SAW) replied: “I will give you the son of a female camel”. The man said with astonishment: “What could I do with the son of a female camel?” (Thinking that he would be given a camel too small to ride). Thereupon Rasulullah (SAW) replied: “What do female camels deliver except camels?” (i.e., that every camel, even if it is fully grown, is the product of a female camel!). (Abu Dawud & Tirmidhi).
Remember that there are guidelines to follow, according to the Sunnah, when it comes to joking, laughing and having fun

1) MAKE SURE you don’t make fun of any aspect of Islam:
Jokes should not involve verses from the Qur’aan, hadith, or any of fundamentals of Islam. Unfortunately, some people tell jokes about the verses of the Qur’aan, Prophets, angels, or they make fun of the Hijaab, the beard, etc. This is the most dangerous as it can make a person a Kaafir, EVEN IF YOU ARE ONLY JOKING.
Sheikh Al-‘Uthaymeen said: “One who mocks Allah, His verses, His signs or His Messengers is a disbeliever because this action nullifies belief.”
Rasulullah (SAW) said: “A slave (of Allah) would utter a word, without paying attention to it, which would result in him going down into the Hellfire further than the distance between the east and the west.” (Muslim)
So the sister in the Niqaab is NOT A NINJAA and the brother who shortens his pants or lengthens his beard is NOT A NERD!
Allah says:
وَلَئِنْ سَأَلْتَهُمْ لَيَقُولُنَّ إِنَّمَا كُنَّا نَخُوضُ وَنَلْعَبُ ۚ قُلْ أَبِاللَّهِ وَآيَاتِهِ وَرَسُولِهِ كُنْتُمْ تَسْتَهْزِئُونَ
لَا تَعْتَذِرُوا قَدْ كَفَرْتُمْ بَعْدَ إِيمَانِكُمْ ۚ إِنْ نَعْفُ عَنْ طَائِفَةٍ مِنْكُمْ نُعَذِّبْ طَائِفَةً بِأَنَّهُمْ كَانُوا مُجْرِمِينَ
“If you ask them, they declare: ‘We were only talking idly and joking.’ Say: ‘Was it at Allah, and His verses and His Messenger that you were mocking? ’Make no excuse; you disbelieved after you had believed” (Surah al-Tawbah 9:65-66)

2) NEVER joke about something that is HARAAM:
Some people, especially the youth living in the western society tend to take the things that are Haraam too lightly and something to joke about. For example, they make jokes about a person being GAY or being ‘high’, having committed zinaa, etc.
Subhaan Allah! We forget that these are things among the worst in the sight of Allah and bring on Allah’s wrath and curse and are certainly NOT things to joke about.

3) Say ONLY that which is true:
Rasulullah (SAW) used to joke but he would only speak the truth.
Someone asked Rasulullah (SAW)): “Do you joke with us?” Rasulullah (SAW) replied: “I do, but I only say that which is true” (Al-Bukhari, Tirmidhi)
If it involves lying and making up stories, then it is not allowed.
Rasulullah (SAW) said, “Woe to the one who speaks and tells a lie in order to make the people laugh at it. Woe to him. Then again, woe to him.” (Al-Tirmidhi)

4) Don’t make jokes to make ‘FUN’ of people:
Be careful that your joking does not hurt anybody’s feelings or harms them in any way. So don’t make those snide remarks or wink behind their backs. Allah says:
يَا أَيُّهَا الَّذِينَ آمَنُوا لَا يَسْخَرْ قَوْمٌ مِنْ قَوْمٍ عَسَىٰ أَنْ يَكُونُوا خَيْرًا مِنْهُمْ وَلَا نِسَاءٌ مِنْ نِسَاءٍ عَسَىٰ أَنْ يَكُنَّ خَيْرًا مِنْهُنَّ ۖ وَلَا تَلْمِزُوا أَنْفُسَكُمْ وَلَا تَنَابَزُوا بِالْأَلْقَابِ ۖ بِئْسَ الِاسْمُ الْفُسُوقُ بَعْدَ الْإِيمَانِ ۚ وَمَنْ لَمْ يَتُبْ فَأُولَـٰئِكَ هُمُ الظَّالِمُونَ
“O you who believe! Let not a group ridicule another group, it may be that the latter are better than the former. Nor let (some) women scoff at other women, it may be that the latter are better than the former. Nor defame one another, nor insult one another by nicknames. How bad is it to insult one’s brother after having Faith” (Surah Hujuraat 49:11)

5) Don’t laugh if someone slips or falls or is afflicted with something:
Rasulullah (SAW) said, “Do not express malicious joy towards your brother’s misfortune, for Allah may have mercy on him and you may be stricken by the thing you made fun of.” (Al-Tirmidhi)

6) Never scare anybody while joking or otherwise:
Rasulullah (SAW) said: ‘It is not permissible for a Muslim to frighten another Muslim.’” (Abu Dawud).

7) Joking should not involve backbiting:
Don’t ever joke about others when they are not there, even if you ‘think’ they wouldn’t mind, as it would involve backbiting.
“(Backbiting is) your mentioning about your brother something that he dislikes.” (Muslim)

8) Beware of excessive laughing and joking:
Don’t be like the one who jokes ALL the time. The amount of joking should be like the amount of salt in one’s food, as too much laughing and joking makes the heart hard, distracts one from the remembrance of Allah and makes you lose respect.
Rasulullah (SAW) said: “Do not laugh too much, for laughing too much deadens the heart.” (Sahih al-Jaami)
‘Umar ibn al-Khattaab (RA) said: “Whoever laughs too much or jokes too much loses respect, and whoever persists in doing something will be known for it.”

9) Choose appropriate time and place for your jokes:
Some people don’t appreciate the time or place for joking and do so indiscriminately. There is a time and place for everything. For example, what might be amusing at a picnic or at the dinner table might not be so amusing in the middle of a Halaqah.  Sufyaan ibn ‘Uyaynah said, “….. It (joking) is Sunnah, but only for those who know how to do it and do it at the appropriate time.”

10) Use appropriate language:
Some people resort to immoral or obscene language when joking around, even though under ‘normal’ circumstances they would not even think of using such words.  Rasulullah (SAW) said: “The Muslim does not slander, curse, speak obscenely or speak rudely.” (Al-Tirmidhi

11) Acknowledge people’s status:
Some people may joke with everyone indiscriminately, but scholars and the elderly have special positions and rights, so you have to be aware of the character of the person with whom you are dealing. You should also not joke with people whom you do not know or who won’t understand, or it may lead to unpleasantness.
‘Umar ibn ‘Abd al-‘Azeez said: “Fear joking, for it is folly and generates grudges.”

Thus we see that Islam is not against jokes. Good humour is part of Islam and Islam does not go against this because it is typically a part of human nature. A Muslim should develop a positive and optimistic personality, and not a gloomy and pessimistic one that is negative towards life.  However, moderation is the key, and it is what distinguishes Muslims from others. We should not  go overboard in our jokes and humour, (or in anything else, for that matter) and if we follow the Sunnah of Rasulullah (SAW) , and his guidance, we will certainly not get lost.
يَا أَيُّهَا الَّذِينَ آمَنُوا اصْبِرُوا وَصَابِرُوا وَرَابِطُوا وَاتَّقُوا اللَّهَ لَعَلَّكُمْ تُفْلِحُونَ
“O you who believe! Be patient, and excel in patience, and remain steadfast and fear Allah, that you may be successful.” (Surah Al-Imran 3:200)

Wednesday, 12 October 2011

My childhood.

Need I say more?

Tuesday, 11 October 2011

It's really hard coming up with a title that has any connection to whatever I am posting.

I see so many people are graduating now. It's the season of graduating they say. Does it makes me feel small? Yep.. sure it did but I am still trying to enjoy a student's life where work politics will still not be in my book. So, should I be thankful? Yea I should and can still be less responsible than those who will be starting to work. Or is my responsibility is actually more than theirs? Sheesh. I am babbling. Exam is a month a way and there are tonnes to read. I don't know how am I going to cram all these into my head as usual but I will manage somehow... Insya Allah. 

Being pointless. 

Monday, 10 October 2011

Becoming a Snorlax

Yet another holiday tomorrow. Can't complain on that. How I wish they just compile all these one day- one day holiday into a big fat long week holiday so that I can get back home. Well everyone, Mysore has a new mall. Yeah maybe a tad late but honestly I am grateful. No need for me to travel for 4 hours on the road by bus to go to Bangalore just to buy some stuff. Yep and that will only happen like what? once in 3-4 months? Quite sad for no KFC or McD though. I was really hoping for either of the two to finally be in Mysore. Maybe I should write a letter proposing them to open a new chain here...

Anyhoo, goodnight!

Sunday, 9 October 2011


owhhh I skipped a day..

I don't know why I love old currently I am listening to my newly downloaded Absolute Golden Oldies. My sisters never quite understand my taste of music somehow. Even I don't know. I don't like loud banging music on my ears but I can stand them once in a while. I love musicals very much too. Blame it on my parents since they introduced it to us since we were small. Back when there was no large TV to watch, my Dad used to bring a projector back home and we will watch The Sound of Music together on the big screen.. or wall. I used to be in charge of handling the projector since the rest of the family is too lazy.

Dad even made us (even my mom) watch The Ten Commandments together for the sake of comparing religion. This was the 1965 film, mind you and do you know how freaking long that movie was? They still have that intermission kinda thing in between the film.

Aih, I missed home.

Friday, 7 October 2011


So I'll take the immunisation at home. Well, save me my money than taking it here. 
Meanwhile, will there be no increase for us undergrad students living overseas? Heheheheh..

One thing that always made me wonder,

Why budget is translated into bajet? Belanjawan sounds nicer though. This reminded me of a reference book back in school. "Ekselen" .. Can you believe that "ekselen"??!! Come on..

Thursday, 6 October 2011

Wednesday, 5 October 2011

This is Spartaaa!

This is madness. It's my 300th post for the past 5 years.
My oh my what have I been rambling on?

To those who don't get the joke, here is a video..

get it? 300? sparta?

Lame I know. But I deserve a monotonous laugh for the effort. And so,  Ha Ha.


Tuesday, 4 October 2011


The line is so slow right now signalling me to go to sleep. Since tomorrow is a holiday and so is the day after, I will not complain or whine about this. Instead I am going to enjoy my time in bliss for not having to wake up very early dreading to go to college for classes.

I am now posted into Medicine department. We'll see whether any interesting cases show up in this coming 2 months. Right now, most of them are COPD and Diabetes cases. Well there's a snake bite case too but the woman really look sick and she was vomiting a lot just now. I always wonder how it feels when people say hearing other people barfing will eventually make you want to barf too. Well now I understand the feeling.

See these elephants.. The drawings on them is the exact design as what I saw in the palace paintings. 

Monday, 3 October 2011


I miss you too little brother..

Sunday, 2 October 2011

an epiphany. well not really.

The more you learn, the more you get scared to eat anything in this world. Not just pig beef chicken or fish. Even vegetables too.

Sushi seems scary nowadays. Or salad. Or any raw uncooked food.

Makes me wonder why no food in a pill being marketed yet for those overly conscious health nuts?

Saturday, 1 October 2011

Day 10

I found that I tend to forget everything I have learnt.. if not everything, most of them.. and by remembering that, it scares me so much to enter the working world. I imagine at that time everything that I need to know should be at my fingertips. With drugs to prescribe, diseases to be diagnosed, procedures to be done. It's freaking me out really.

Now tell me how to remember all those medical jargon when I totally forgot about the chikus that I bought?

Friday, 30 September 2011

Feeling nerdy.

Quoting from Green Lantern..
There's a saying on Earth "I am only human."
We say it because we are vulnerable..we say it because we know we are afraid.
But it doesn't mean we are weak.
 My back hurts so much right now like an old lady having osteoporosis maybe.

Thursday, 29 September 2011


It's hard not to be a racist. Even a snide remark can easily put you into the racist category but come on, I don't think every single person is holy or goody-two-shoes enough not to make jokes or comments about racism...and not everyone is over sensitive about it in which I do admit we do have some people acting like their race is so superior over another. Nothing can be said against them or they will start jumping, ready to attack you the moment you said something demeaning about them even it is pointing to one person only not the whole race. Perasan . We must have been a racist, at some point of our lives knowingly or not.

So no need to be over agitated censoring everything. How to expand our mind, to challenge our convictions, if we avoid all the things that are sensitive to be discussed? Well, freedom of speech is freedom indeed but there are limitations and I am sure we know our limit.

Like my mom said,
"biarkan dia usik seterika panas..kot dah sakit baru tahu" - Ibu saya.

Wednesday, 28 September 2011

I need sleep.

Honestly I am only on my 7th day but I don't have anything to ramble on really which is so not me since I can really jabber on without stopping and make people really uncomfortable. Either that or make people uncomfortable with my silence and I don't mean it but people do say that I have deadly stares. I blame my eyebrows and squinty eyes for that.  Sometimes I'd rather prefer being in silence and it is comfortable once in a while sitting right there doing nothing. Staring into space. Daydreaming. Having a conversation alone in your mind. Plotting a murder or  making a plan of saving the world. Yeah..the usual thing.

But communication is the key as my father always said. We obviously cannot live without interaction anyway. 

Day 7.

Tuesday, 27 September 2011

put a lime in the coconut.

I am bloated.

And that is all.

Still this will be considered as Day 6.

Monday, 26 September 2011


I went inside the Mysore Palace for the first time since I have been here for the last three years. The palace  intrigued me many times before but unfortunately the time did not permit me to visit it. But at last, this Sunday proven to be a very educational weekend for me. The palace was beautiful and magnificent, even I have to admit that. It was so extravagant with the ivory or gold dust in every tapestry, 700kg golden throne, lots of large elephant tusks, silver door, teak wood ceilings, crystal chairs, big " i forgot where it came from but surely not India" chandeliers and weapons made out of  gold, silver, brass, metal..

Honestly with so many gold and colourful history, how can once a rich country becomes like this today?

Anyway, I was sorted into Ravenclaw!! It was such a relief not to be in Hufflepuff never the less. Heheh

Day 5.

Sunday, 25 September 2011

Trust not what you see.

I have this near obsession towards Harry Potter and anyone who is dissing on HP, I get slightly irritated with my mind silently having their own conversation like "Wow, your capability of imagining things must be smaller than a bacteria for you not to enjoy this wonderful make-believe world which is highly unlikely to exist hence the escape from the reality we need and who doesn't want a bit of magic going around?" Mind you I am talking mostly about the books. I am quite thankful no one can hear what I think anyway because I can be very mean in my own head. It's quite.. what's the word.. heavenly? thankful? that my mouth does not work synchronously with my brain sometimes. If not it would be disastrous. I am not nice anyway when it comes to being a cynic. And most of the times I realize the mistake that I make only after the disaster strikes or after being reflective at the end of the day.

My bad since I know not every person need to like the same things. Obviously the world  will be very boring to live in. There will be no fan base or anything because everybody loves everything. There will be no profit or loss since everyone is going to the same movies or buying the same books which have the same story line and cover. There will be no pretty merchandises we get to buy. Imagine everyone wearing the same shirt and pants driving the same car eating the same food.

Similar to my disliking of Twilight books, the fans will most probably will try to choke me to death if I start dissing about their most favourite characters. Fans can get really scary sometimes. The same with one HP fan. He's an American yet he talked like a British. He wears different HP shirts everyday. His room is full with HP things. Seriously, how can you have your life being devoted to one character that is fictional at the same time throwing away your own identity?
If you resist reading what you disagree with, how will you ever acquire deeper insights into what you believe?  The things most worth reading are precisely those that challenge our convictions. - Author unknown
True enough. I only finished the first of Twilight series. It does challenge me in so many ways.

Day 4 the day I woke up early although it is Sunday. 

Saturday, 24 September 2011

pottermore u lie.

How do people survive without electric? Even the trivial things such as washing my clothes I still need the electric to keep the machine going. Keeping me entertained also I require my computer or my phone. I still have books so maybe the entertainment part I can still survive myself. Even my prayer times I depend mostly on my phone or again my computer because I don't know how to tell times or do the calculations by doing the traditional method  e.g observing the shadow and so forth. 

How do Amish people live without modern technology is still a wonder to me.. I must suck very much if I am being left alone in a jungle without the right things or people.

Day 3.

p/s: Where is my acceptance letter pottermore? it is almost october.

Friday, 23 September 2011

yawning till my tudung pin came off.

Day 2.

Well the electric finally came back. Thank god. We had our small usrah again after so many months of absence. We were all busy I guess with the exam, raya and all.

A doctor told us today he found his interest in Anesthesia during his internship while before that he wanted to be a pediatrician. Even he told us he knew like 75% of us if being asked will have keen interests in pediatrics. I found anesthesia is kinda interesting but seeing the books they are reading all the time in the OT.. made me think twice about it.

I also love OBG but if possible I would like to push the G away which is impossible. Gynaecology is never a pretty sight and occasionally the smell might get to you too.

But for the time being, I have to be content with the MBBS only..

Thursday, 22 September 2011


The thing about living here is like living not up to your expectation so that when you are getting something you are not used to you will be exceptionally grateful. Take for example.. it is very unusual to hear my local friends saying "please"  if they are borrowing one of my things and it is a bit awkward at the beginning since I am so used to hear "may I..".. or "can I....please". So when someone is being very courteous adding please at the end or May I or Can I at the beginning a sense of awe came up to me and hold me back momentarily.

I wanted to start a project of writing for 30 consecutive days since I am so jobless right now. See if I can keep it up tho.

Hence, Day 1.

Tuesday, 20 September 2011

oh wow what a life.

Salaam Alaik

I am in constant lazy mode nowadays. Waking up early in the morning is like pure torture and I am hoping it to be holiday.. every single morning without fail. Maybe that is the reason why not to sleep right after Subuh? Heh.

I have to admit the sight of this lake is pretty amazing on the evening.

Goodnight folks.

Friday, 9 September 2011

There were times..

Sometimes I regret myself for things that I should not have done. For what right do I have to condemn other people or God's own creation?  I am not perfect myself.

I snapped and not proud of it at all.

My being silence afterwards is only a mere reflection of regretting the deed I'd done.


I guess I am still a normal human being after all.

refleksiharijumaatsemuajangansibuk.rindufemli. gladtohavewhatsappinstalled. Hohe.

oh ain rossa is a family now. who knows the beruang next to my bed back in school is really a family now?

Monday, 29 August 2011

ok i might be into raya mood a teeny weeny bit

Salaam Alaik

Is it Eid already?

Well, it is only Monday today. If I am in Malaysia, today will be the last day of Ramadhan for this year but I am blessed to be in the land of Maharajahs and will have our Eid a day later. I don't really mind actually. One day is not much big of a deal.

Facebook right now is really annoying. I am preventing myself from loading that page because all that I will ever see is people rejoicing over the fact that they are back in their hometown celebrating with family. I am jealous that is all. So my problem to the solution is not to open it at all for a while. I disabled all the mail notifications too. Over reacting much kan? Hahah. Well actually there is this app for chrome letting you get all the notifications without actually logging into the account which is perfect. It is my choice to stay here instead of going back. And it has been done and I have to bear with it for a couple of days more. After that, the Raya hype will finally go down and life goes back to normal.

It has been a looong time since I was babbling incoherently with no particular topic here. Like ranting or babbling. Dubai post will not be taken into account since it was a post with a direction. I think I am going to clean up my room and toilet today. To get into the festive mood, you know. And prolly blasting off with raya songs while doing the chores. Dendang Perantau is a must of course.

Oh yeah, I made some kuih raya today with my friends and they were awesome.

cilok this from a friend. 
pretty eh?

I miss my family. I wish to be with you guys there. I know it will be very sad without me on Tuesday  *I know you will. no point of denying that sisters. save my duit raya will ya?*  but don't worry, I'll be in the hospital with very much joy looking over some surgeries maybe. 

So that's it. My pointless babbling will stop here.

Eid Mubarak! Selamat Hari Raya! Maaf Zahir dan Batin! and many other cliche wishes I hereby bid to all of you!

Friday, 26 August 2011


And I hope my decision of not going back is right. 


Saturday, 20 August 2011

I am lazy Jane.

Salaam Alaik

This blog of mine really is getting abandoned. I sometimes feel like deleting the blog altogether because feeling too much of overexposing myself to the world.. Like overexposing to people I don't know is okay.. as in tumblr. Hoho. But reality is I don't know how to write anymore. 

Anyway, here we are more than half way through Ramadhan. This year I will be celebrating Eid in Mysore. Maybe I should start listening to raya songs to get into the mood eh? Then cry a bucketful of tears afterwards regretting the decision of not going back home. Not that I don't want to but I can't. Sadly. I wish next year I will be able to celebrate Eid with my family. 

India is okay I guess. It has been only a week+ I am back here. I will have to brace myself for another six months I guess. 

Well, goodnight.

Friday, 5 August 2011

Do you know how awesome Malaysia is?

It is like this awesome.

Friday, 8 July 2011

As promised.

Salaam Alaik

Ehhh... blogger is different now. This is weird. After so many years, they finally decided to change the interface?

Dubai.. dubai.. From where shall I start? Actually Dubai was on my plan long time ago thinking there will be nothing much to see in Dubai but truth is, a week is not enough yo. Roughly, Dubai made you having an ambition of marrying a super rich guy because it is all about money in Dubai. You'll see girls as young as 12 or 13 maybe, towing a Juicy Couture bag in one hand, Blackberry/Iphone with another and a maid walking behind carrying their loot for the day. Who brings along maids to shopping? You will see families with small kids in the Burberry Kids, Armani Junior and Dior Kids. Tsk..tsk..


As we arrived in Dubai trying to figure out the transport system, the major thing that we found out was if you wanted to travel by Metro to get into the city or your hotel, do not be there on Fridays because the Metro will only start at noon after Friday prayers. So, you either have to take a taxi which is very expensive as they will start the meter on 25dirhams or wait for the Metro. We chose taxi and arrived safely at Rush Inn Hotel. Rush Inn Hotel was a good budget hotel. Our room was clean, the hotel is very near to public transport and nearby there is a pharmacy and a supermarket. Pretty much convenient.

That evening we were picked up by the agency for Desert Safari by 3.30pm and reaches the desert in half an hour  time I think. It was super fun and really worth the money. We have dune bashing where the driver drove with his mad skills in the desert (they were trained by the way) and with us inside jumping up and down. Thank God for the seat belts.

The three pseudo Arabian men. 

 Jakunlah ok.

 Huehue. More like Mongolian than Arabian. Lol

 These guys deserved standing ovation. I bet they can pass tandem walking test after twirling like mad for 20minutes maybe? 

 A belly dancer named Lubna if I am not mistaken and she's like an internationally acclaimed belly dancer, that was what they say. Men were gawking at her the entire time while old ladies or the wives trying to eat their food silently. The food was nice by the way and the dances were like a deviation for us from taking more food I guess. I always thought that belly dancing was like a torture to your hips. I winced at times seeing this. Haha.

The closing dance which was extremely weird and horrifying. but most of us enjoyed it. Maybe because it was too  funny.

The next day, we went to Dubai Museum which was within walking distance from our hotel. For 3 dirhams there were many so things to see. Dubai Museum was partly air-conditioned because it was a fort previously. It was built with coral rock and mortar. I don't even know what coral rock is but from the texture and the look of it, it looks like corals. Google lah. I malas. 

I did not expect much from the museum because from outside the museum looked small but surprisingly the museum filled up our entire morning. It was very interesting in my opinion but history wise, Dubai was pretty much about trading and business.

The mannequins awesomely looked real! It must be scary at nights if you are alone. 
Night at the Museum : Battle of Sheesha and drinking teas.

This reminds me when I was small. Ayah pegang rotan ke ha? but one ustazah at school pinched me very hard and made me stand in front of the class. She taught me Quran.  I kinda don't like her from that point onward. 

Then we walked around to reach the creek to take an Abra to cross the Dubai Creek to reach Deira. It was hot and I am still amazed, how we managed to walk about in the heat. We literally bathing in our own sweats.  

Sweaty Malaysian-always-being-mistaken-as-Filipino people.

 This is Abra. Only 1dirham to board. 

Due to the overwhelming heat, we decided to take a metro, off to Dubai Mall and bought tickets for Burj Khalifa. Before that, I think we went to Deira City Centre. Dubai has lots and lots of shopping malls. Even on weekdays, we saw many people in the mall as if they have nothing else to do but shopping. By evening, we were again being picked up for our Dhow Dinner Cruise. Dhow is basically a large boat to carry things.

If the Dhow went a bit faster during the summer time, I will surely recommend  to sit and enjoy the view upstairs for the open-air view because it was hot really even at nights making us appreciate Mysore's weather more. The food was OK but I loved the veg lasagna. Yeah, veg. 

 View from the dhow. It was really really really nice.

 Certainly not for people seeking calm and relaxing dinner that night but it was entertaining to see these ladies. We even took pictures together. Hohohoho.

The next day, we decided to go and see Jumeirah. We traveled a lot by their public transport. What I like about their public transport is there are seats for buses and a coach for the metros allocated for women only. We queued to buy bus tickets to Abu Dhabi the next day but they called us two girls to go directly into the bus. No need to queue. How awesome was that? 

So we went to Jumeirah. The first stop is Jumeirah Mosque. There were two volunteers inside the mosque telling about Islam basically. How we pray, why we pray in the directions of Kaabah, why we women cover ourselves from head to toe, why some women wear jilbab and all those stuff.  I think it is a good effort to introduce Islam to those who never knew what Islam really is. I am very happy at the end of the tour. Maybe one day I will do the same thing as this. 

Jumeirah mosque.

Mercato mall. I like this mall. 

Crazy tourists going to the beach at 2pm.

Then we walked around and I think this was the nearest we "the miskins" can get to Burj Al-Arab. Lol.

 15 dirhams if you want to see Jumeirah Palace. From the outside.

Jumeirah Palace where the filthy stinking rich people reside. The ambition level increased even more around this point of time.

The residential area. It was very lovely.


We then headed back to the city to Dubai Mall. We were gonna have our At The Top: Burj Khalifa experience. I was very much excited about this since Dad went to Dubai and didn't get the chance to go up there.

 No idea which building is which.

Burj Khalifa. You should hear the metro guy saying burj khalifa. It was funny.

Current records

  • Tallest skyscraper (to top of spire): 828 m (2,717 ft) (previously Taipei 101 – 509.2 m/1,671 ft)
  • Tallest structure ever built: 828 m (2,717 ft) (previously Warsaw radio mast – 646.38 m/2,121 ft)
  • Tallest extant structure: 828 m (2,717 ft) (previously KVLY-TV mast – 628.8 m/2,063 ft)
  • Tallest freestanding structure: 828 m (2,717 ft) (previously CN Tower – 553.3 m/1,815 ft)
  • Building with most floors: 160 (previously Willis Tower – 108)
  • Building with world's highest occupied floor: 160th floor
  • World's highest elevator installation (situated inside a rod at the very top of the building)
  • World's fastest elevators: 64 km/h (40 mph) or 18 m/s (59 ft/s) (previously Taipei 101 – 16.83 m/s)
  • Highest vertical concrete pumping (for a building): 606 m (1,988 ft) (previously Taipei 101 – 449.2 m/1,474 ft)
  • First world's tallest structure in history to include residential space
  • World's highest outdoor observation deck: 124th floor at 452 m (1,483 ft)
  • World's highest mosque: 158th floor
  • World's highest installation of an aluminium and glass facade: 512 m (1,680 ft)
  • World's second highest swimming pool: 76th floor[28] (world's highest swimming pool is located on 108th floor of Ritz-Carlton Hotel at International Commerce CentreHong-Kong)
  • World's highest nightclub: 144th floor
  • World's highest restaurant (At.mosphere): 122nd floor at 442 m (1,450 ft) (previously 360, at a height of 350 m/1,148 ft in CN Tower)
  • World's highest New Year display of fireworks.


 Those with super mahal camera must really appreciate their camera now. 

Abu Dhabi was our destination the next day. It took us 2 hours to reach Abu Dhabi from Dubai and costing us 15 dirhams which was okay.  

This is the Emirates Palace Hotel. Also where the filthy stinking rich resides. The taxi driver said usually they let tourist go in, take pictures but sadly that day was not our day. 

Ada rules and regulations lagi kat depan.

 Later we went to Heritage Village but due to the awesome heat, we cannot tahan and look around anymore.

 Siapa ok gila nak duduk luar makan-makan takdek payung ngan ekon? 

We then went to Sheikh Zayed Mosque. It was listed in Listverse for Top 10 Heavyweight Mosque. Worth the heat to see this mosque. It was stunningly beautiful. Oh I just read in wiki, the carpet in the main hall for prayers is considered to be the largest carpet in the world!

 Swarovski crystals all they way for the chandeliers.

 Back to Dubai by bus. 39 degrees? Like really?

The next morning, as our usual routine, we bought breakfast from Supermarket. Nothing fancy. We were on a budget holiday. I bought "Laban" almost everyday. I remembered when we went to Mekah or Madinah on Ramadhan, there was like people giving off free Laban and dates. Triggered by curiosity, we asked Dad to buy Laban for us. It was yucky but then I bought it again in Dubai just to remember what it tasted like. I liked it actually. It tasted like yogurt drink without sugar or flavour. I am turning old.

We went to Bastakiya after that. Not much things to see here but I like the building though. And it was steaming hot. Mandi peluh everyday.

After going around in Bastakiya, we finally had enough and decided to cool off and so we went to Mall of Emirates. They have this one of the largest indoor ski slope. Orang Dubai tak ada kerja. Semua nak jadi world record.

Aha. One interesting thing that we saw was this. Gold ATM. Because they are too rich they can buy gold straight from vending machine. The cheapest was prolly 1k dirhams. For one ounce of gold you can pay directly by cash or by card, 6k+ dirhams.  and then..

These will be yours.

We never really confirmed to enter Ski Dubai because it was quite costly but after much deliberation, we decided to go. For 200 dirhams we had this Superpass where we can do anything we want but skiing. For skiing you need to at least complete Level One and have beginner lesson which was even more costly. For group lesson, 220 dirhams perperson. 

 Excited faces before entering.

 Excited faces again. Yeah, the snow is not real but heck who cares. We were in the world third largest indoor ski slope.  

The temperature was -3 degrees. Outside the temperature was 36-37 degrees. Extreme temperature change in one day. Pity our skin pores all right. 

We headed to Dubai Mall again to see Dubai Fountain. This was super awesome. 

Tsk. Already missing Dubai.

here. not my video but this was what we saw the other day. Really awesome.

To sum up, Dubai is a fascinating place but it is full with Filipinos and Indians. And please Filipinos working in Dubai, not all tourists with a slight mata sepet and tan skin is a Filipino too. *sigh*

Okie dokie.
2 weeks more to go for home. Tak sabar!

p/s: Thanks to Fibi, Dzul, Fahim and Hafiz for this wonderful holiday. If I ever did or say something wrong, I am sorry.heh