Wednesday, 4 April 2012

anger management issue.

I guess it is easy to become angry when we think we have the right to be angry. Allah gives us the ni'mah of having all kinds of feeling including anger, so there must be really goodness in having these feelings that most of the time will only create animosity. I suppose, it is a matter of where to channel the anger to benefit us in some way.

Always I regret my post-hulk actions and words. After being angry there will always be a pang of regret. Just like the other day when an auto driver took an extra 10rupees, I was easily raising up my voice to him. Few minutes after bickering with him, I went up to my room and regret my action so very much. And I thought of going back later to find him and say sorry because he was old and yeah, he was working to find extra money to feed his children maybe.. (although that is not an excuse to cheat people but come on, my 10 rupees is not worth to be angry about) But of course, saying sorry is such a huge task for me and ended up not doing it. It is also hard to find that one particular auto driver in Mysore..

For me, the best way to control my anger is to shut up. Because with that, my anger will subside in a drastic way. I find that in keeping mum about it, made me think twice why should I be angry..and the right I have to be angry with other people whom I don't know things they are currently going through. 

I just hope I am able to control my anger and forgive and yes, apologize.