10years ago, I thought I will be tall enough to reach the uppermost part of the blackboard.

Salaam Alaik

For 2010

1. I never had an awful lot of homesickness before. Yelah kot kat SMAP, tetiap minggu ibu datang jemput sanggup tunggu habis tazkirah jumaat bondong2 bawak baju kotor, ibu buat masak-masak pastu makan kat pondok depan asrama tu. Takpun ibu seludup bawak balik. Kat KTT, kot rindu rumah, call ayah/ibu, nanti petang sikit ayah balik dari kerja ayah jemput terus bawak balik takpun pergi makan kat Nilai ,borak-borak sampai maghrib.. Ni kat Hindia. Tak boleh nak balik selalu. Walaupun dah selalu balik, tapi tak sama. Like now, I want to go home again although it is barely a week after I came back from Malaysia. Sobs.

2. I celebrated 2010 here yo but at that time I was doing my countdown to go back.

3. I sat for this one of a kind exam for 5 consecutive days. By the end of the 5th day, directly after finishing the last theory paper, I went Skype-ing with my friends and they said my face was awful.

4. Yeah, not to forget the blunder I made for the exam. Still a plausible act for I managed to pass though. Syukuuuuur Alhamdulillah.

5. I was mental almost throughout the year 'cause I have too many aggravating factors. Alasan.

6. Started UO with Ayu and Mimy. I miss Mimy's way of telling stories and Ayu's way of trying to get us to talk? Lol.

7. Went here and there. Exploring India but only in the south. Never cease to amaze me.

8. Dunno how many chocs I bought and ate this year. Too many. Way too many but surprisingly I am not gaining any weight. All the curry and chillies I ate apparently increased my metabolism rate, maybe.

9. Oh yeah, I moved into a new house. My room is complete now with the furnitures and all but still I malas nak ambil gambar show off pada dunia.. I am lazy like that.

10. What else eh? Is my life was so uneventful this year? T.T

11. Gained many new friends, lost none I hope. My facebook is kinda dormant lately.. My tumblr kinda active lately. Being anon is way too awesome. My sister please do unfollow me. My freedom of expression is suppressed with you around. Miahahahhahahaha.

12. Watched one Hindi movie only. but watched too many series.

13. Lost Nohara but I have Misae now.

Dahla ok. too many things happened really. it is never uneventful a life is. everyday there is something significant in your life. it is just whether you realized or not, the events that make you the way you are NOW.

Alhamdulillah and I am welcoming 2011 and 1432H with an open mind and heart.

allow me to be in semangat kenegaraan for a while. No BTN can do this. XD

TAKE THAT INDONESIANS TAKE THAT!!

MIAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA

pueh ati den.

ok bye nak dengar review.

Dreading to go back like VERY. Hiaarghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

XD

Salaam Alaik

You know,

if i can put up a big grin with hand clasping together over here, I will most probably do it but








wait i'll go and try to google one, fit for what I am feeling now.

Ha! i think my face right now will be more or less like Hobbes. HAHAHAH

Okie dokie, goodbye.

Salaam Maal Hijrah to all. May Allah bless us in every single thing that we do. May we be a better servant. May we be more grateful. May we be the best yet the humblest being He created.

One of the days.

Kacak budak2 hansons ni. tapi sadly semua dah kahwin.

Maybe I could take take a look at myself lately.

Seriously, do doctors greet patients with Hello, good morning..?

Salaam Alaik

I was posted to a new department this week from OBG to General Medicine. Luckily ( I hope ), I was posted into 4th Unit in which I heard good stories of no screaming PGs or evil unit head but, you'll never know as it has only been 2 days. So far I can say, everything's good.

Today was OPD day. There will be like many sick patients coming into the department to be diagnosed and get admitted into wards. Nothing unusual happened. But one thing that really caught my attention was when one police officer came in. He was coming along with two elderly people who I guessed were his parents. His mother was being checked exclusively by the head unit, pushing behind all those that came in before her. Well that was nothing maybe but what amazed me was the police officer got to sit at the table together with the doctors. Mind you, this is a very crowded place.

Those who accompanied the patients to see the doctor will never get to sit because I repeat, it's a very crowded room. But this guy, with his uniform, Daewoo walkie-talkie and one big confident moustache sat nonchalantly next to one of the PGs and begin talking to the unit head. The next thing that made me shaking my head silently was he yelled to another patient for trying to see the doctor before his father did. It was unsettling because his father was hiding far behind where no one could see him and others were queuing for a long time. Maybe that atuk penat kot. His BP was 190/110mmHg by the way. Tapi tak perlu jerit-jerit. Kecut perut pakcik diabetic sejak umur 13 tahun, yang sekarang heading to renal failure tu tadi. Kesian dia.

The power of uniform, ey?

It reminded me with one news in Malaysia. There was this boy who wrote a letter to the camp where he was being assigned to for the NS/PLKN stating that he was the foster child of one of the sultan. The hilarious part was, the boy was welcomed extravagantly by the camp administrator and all. When later they found out the truth, it was like a huuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuge embarrassment and tried to blame the boy etc etc. Dah malu nak pinpoint kat orang lain. SOY lah! SOY!

What I am trying to say is, double standard ada di mana-mana.

Bangalore has a city centaur yo.

Ta.

Am I a racist?

Salaam Alaik

It has been ages since I watched Hindi movies. I used to like them before because my sister watched Hindi movies like A LOT. Then in KTT, my tangga mates LOVE Hindi movies big time. One can even recognize all the actors and actresses. I pretty much watched the latest movies and listening to the songs at that time because of them. Heheh..

But after a few months here rebelling and all, I have come up to the level where I hate their movies and couldn't even bear to hear the language spoken ( there is this one girl who keep on talking to me in Hindi. I was doing my "yeah i can totally understand u" face  and she was like oh, I forgot you don't understand Hindi.*big grin here*  Duh..) or to watch the dance as the people here love to dance a lot. Yep, that much of hatred. So here I am, after a year and a half, the hatred is still there but only in a small amount but can only be triggered and multiplied at times, having finally made up my mind to watch one of the famous movie of the year 2009 or is it 2010? , the 3 Idiots.

Aamir Khan looked young and pretty much cute in the movie and he was smooching with Kareena. I didn't hear any sound about it because believe me, for Hindi movies ,sexy : yes but kissing part never took place. Well prolly it's not classified as kissing since what Kareena did was forcefully smacking Aamir Khan's lips. I thought people here are sensitive about that in the movies/real life/whatever because if I am not mistaken, when Richard Gere kissed Shilpa Shetty on the cheek, the ruckus they made was unbelievable saying he was not respecting their culture and all.

Oh well.

Putting that aside, the movie was funny though and my detest for Hindi is no more now or well, very little at least. I will be looking for other Hindi movies after this. Hahah.  I thought of rambling about their education system, how the students and teachers are like but I am too lazy. Later when I have the power to ramble on, I will do this.

p/s: My voice sounds manly due to the coughing. *sigh*

aha.rabu cuti lagi.

Salaam Alaik

Hi.

Actually there is nothing to write but I am just like getting to know tumblr for now. Sure it is cool . Very cool. They say it's microblogging. I don't know how to explain. Just go and find out yourselves. Of course it is pointless when you already have a blog, come to think of it but you know somehow we need to be pointless. Haha.

I am blabbering.

Anyhooooooo,

Mysore is just the same boring old Mysore with bits of gossips thrown in here and there. It is boring. Totally boring.  It's the apex of boringness you can never know. I need to get out of this place as soon as I can as it is killing me from the inside.

Drama queen very much.

2 weeks more.
2 weeks.

And I am very jealous of you lot vacationing here and there back home. Good food and a good place. What more could you possibly ask for?

Is there any Thursday blues? 'cause I am having one right now.

Salaam Alaik

Happy Eid everyone!

I woke up late this morning. The alarm snoozed alright but I went to sleep like I always did. Here's the thing actually, I miss home. Last night I listened to the takbir and it made me saaad... hormon ka? I was browsing Dad's photo album over the FB. Yeps you got that right. My father has a Facebook account. So is my mother but Dad doesn't use it much as Mum. Hehe. Actually come to think of it, Facebook used to have mostly old people only in it. I mean not old.. old.. but you know those in working circles, university students and all. older generation maybe? The number of friends will not exceed few hundreds I believe but lo and behold, now we can see there are like 4k+ friends for some veryyyyy feyyymesss pipel or those who like to make friends? 


But my 9 year old brother is having a Facebook account too and not to forget his little friends. Kids these days. Sheesh.. Pergi main sep tiang / baling selipar sudah. Nak main fesbuk..Sheesh..




Anyway, what am I talking about?


Oh yeah, I miss home.


I saw Dad wrote the caption, Ini Masao for his friend's photo. Come on Dad. That is an inside joke. What if Masao gets to know about that eh? Habislah nickname tu kita tak boleh guna ok? But sure it cracked me up when I read it. 

Hrithik Roshan ada nyanyi-nyanyi ke?

Jom tengok HP7 jommmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm!!!

p/s: My eid this year is much much much better than the last. الحمد لله .Thanks to Malaysians in Mysore and that is 37 of them, I think, excluding me. I had a proper celebration minus the qurban though and i am stuffed with yummy food , also with a nice weather to snuggle up in bed later.

deswaitumoroaiemverilezitugotuklasbutkenotaimasgo.

ta.

Lari untuk selamat.

Salaam Alaik

Rasa sangat berdosa.
Yeah,if you know what I am talking about.XD

Well,

SELAMAT HARI RAYA.

Malam ni kena doa banyak-banyak sebab orang wukuf kat Arafah.

Nah pergi baca.

down memory lane.

Salaam Alaik

As I was browsing the net, I miraculously found this. Teehee..

Man.. How lame the vids back then. I couldn't imagine if I was in the video and watching it 10 years later. Malu seyh. I was really laughing my head off because the last time I heard this song was during my KTT times. My friend did have this song on her phone and played it out loud during exam times if I am not mistaken. And the part when the guy was reciting poem to this Fiona girl was really funny. Haih.. I wish I can turn back time during those days. KTT was really small  but the people in it really brighten up the place. I miss my KTT friends really.

kredit dah capai negatif.

Salaam Alaik

I only realized just now that I said the HOD kept on pushing us but actually it is not the HOD. This person I was talking about actually is my unit head. He's in charge of the unit and pretty awesome at that too. He was the HOD for a couple of years but if one post is being held too long by someone, it will do no good. You can see the state of Malaysia now. Drama y'all. Barulah syok kau ada rival-rival. Semua orang nak buat kerja sungguh-sungguh. Layan orang bawahan dengan baik. Kasik itu ini nak menangkan hati orang bawahan. If there's no opposition team, the world will be dull, I tell you. Same like if you have a friend that nod and yes-sing to every word that you said. Kan kan? Just say yes will ya? HAHA.

I was being asked earlier today whether Babi or Syaitan is much worse?

Due to my lacking of reactivity? or reaction? in giving proper answer, and I wonder how did I answer all those POIs before.., I choose Syaitan to be the worst though I told my friend it is just the same.

You see, Babi is just a dirty animal. Babi sounds so not nice but a pig sounds otherwise. When you hear someone is calling names of other people, Babi will sound so horrendous and not pretty at all. The emotion of saying pig and babi is different too. Try, you pig! is nothing more than just calling someone who ate like a pig. At least that is what I imagined all this while.

He's a pig. Babilah dia. Contoh ok. Haha rasa macam zaman sekolah rendah. I din know why we were so allergic to the word to the point if we want to say it, "contohlah kan.." must be inserted. What I want to say is, Babi or pig is just an animal. A dirty one. Maybe that is why people will be offended if you are comparing him to an animal.

Erm.. I am not encouraging anyone to "membabikan" those who made you angry but it is just too funny. Piglet is cute by the way. My parents don't like me cursing others. I am a good daughter so I obey them. HAHAHAHAHA.shadap. What I am doing now,my friends.. is what we call angkat bakul sendiri.


Syaitan on the other hand was and still a pure evil. Who can challenge that,eh? 

A girl in her outfit to the shopping mall. Why Mummy never dressed me like this before?

I learnt a new word. Daghak? Any Kelantanese to clarify this? 

p/s: why so serious?

Naik motor pukul 5 pagi kat Mysore was awsome.

Salaam Alaik

Finally after a month being posted to OBG department, I was able to see babies being delivered with my own two eyes. I know people would be thinking , I should be able to see babies being delivered anytime I want as 29 babies are being born each minute in India. I was just out of luck and with the HOD kept on pushing us, I managed to squeeze some luck finally. It was bugging me really seeing other units happily left the hospital but our unit had to bust our ass off and still being threatened to be marked absent. Our "physical" attendances apparently are not enough and so were the night postings. You need to work extra hard, so he said.

There is this warm fuzzy feeling inside when seeing this for the first time and watching the baby right after being born, opening up his big eyes madly gawking at everything made all of us went, "Awwwwwwwwwwwwww.." Many people said newborn babies looked like wrinkled monkeys but seriously, are you people out of your mind? No babies are ugly. Babies are naturally cute and have nothing similar to monkey at all but the cries might be slightly funny and annoying too.

I went for night posting and didn't sleep the whole night. But all worth it tho. =)

A baby girl. I hope the world treats you kind and you treat others the same too. 

Sometimes, I think I talk too much. Waaaay too much. It is a sudden realization. And puking on the bus with no plastic in hands proved to be hideous and one smelly occasion. I am sorry,Atul. I hope it did not ruin your journey afterwards. Must keep in mind to travel with a plastic bag, just in case. A pair of surgical gloves is handy too. Anything to contain your vomit. Haha.

But anyway, came across this page. Penat gelak-gelak yawww. And I think I am becoming more cynical over the days but one hopeful cynic, I hope.

Isnin biru-biru..ke isnin yang kebiruan?

Monday blues. Make sense?

Salaam Alaik

and greetings humans.

What make us hooked to Facebook, Blog, Twitter, Tumblr or any online social websites there are?

1. You are lying if you say you are not a busy body yet you surfed the internet and looked into others' profile. You are just like me who like to know what happen to others. Whether they are getting fatter or slimmer or hotter or sexier or more soleh/solehah. In short, you are a busy body. You are. Tak payah geleng kepala or pointing fingers or make faces because admit it. YOU ARE!

2. You can express yourself in any way that you want when no body else really cares. Say, in the form of words or your photography skills. Like in saying whatever you like, or taking pictures and post it up in whatever poses you want. Which also can help with your self-esteem when one compliments you.

3. You are an attention seeker. Come on. Admit it. No harm in that. So what if we are? Since small we do need attention from our parents, don't we? There are five stages of grief and most of you, not me, is in the first stage. That is denial. I am on the fifth i.e acceptance. What are we grieving for exactly? The sad human race who have no life other than surfing the net. Again, I am accepting the fact that I am sad too.

4. You like sharing which is a pretty good thing. Sharing is caring, eh? If not, what is with the videos and notes and lyrics and quotes being posted? I am being general not only focusing on Facebook or Blog. Because I like to share. Saw the HP trailer already? It was awesome, wasn't it?

5. Or maybe all these things are our creative outlet? Writing.. Photography.. Music.. Hmm?

Pfft.. I have no life. I need to get out and do some shopping. My orange juice is out of stock. Aih.. can't wait till December but am really dreading January. And I also in need of new story books. Mysore has limited number of story books. Must go to Bangalore to purchase lots and lots of new ones.

Sorry for the pointless babbling. And if you read till the end though it is short and that is very lazy of you if you don't, you deserve a pat on the back. Syabbas mera beti!Syabbas!

Jumaat is the best day of all days. Period.

Salaam Alaik

To be honest, I never really like people putting up songs on their blog. It almost kill the mood instantly to read their posts. That is why I am not putting any on my blog. It clashes with my principle.*yeah, I sense the poyoness too* But I was once like that because I think I want people to hear what I was listening at that time, in which later I found out, nobody cares. The same with my writings but then who cares right? We can do anything that we are pleased to do which is why I am writing this piece of junk and wondering when will I be able to write seriously for my intellectual satisfaction. Heh. Prolly light years away.

 I like to read when it is all quiet. But when academic comes to mind, I prefer music or anything that sounds good to my ears on the background. Not that loud but you pretty much know what is playing at least. Or I will just let a movie play by itself while I am doing my work. I need companion badly while I am studying. Or I will go mad.

Anyway,

Indians sure party really hard. I don’t know Indians in other places but Indians in Mysore sure do like loud music. It amazes me how they can stand the loudness of their music. I almost went deaf yesterday due to their shrieking,whistling and of course much too loud music. I am the kind of person who almost cannot tolerate loud music.. Almost but seriously it was too much. Even a friend of mine who used to loudness complained about it. So, it wasn't just me.

My head was buzzing last night after the function. Too many people dancing on the stage too and it gets boring when you see the same thing on repetition. You know, menari, menyanyi, menari, menyanyi, pastu menari balik. pastu fashion show. It was a jaw dropping scene to see the PGs and doctors with tight faces all day long suddenly dancing or was it jumping? wildly at the middle of the auditorium. They went banana all right.

I just watched Unthinkable. I think it was a bit dry. Again, a bit about terrorism and Islam. You guys got nothing else but Islam and terrorism? But anyway, the story was basically on how far you’ll go and torture  to get info from a terrorist or so it seems. It was brutish. More like Saw movies, not gory as much but you will cringe few times.

Today is holiday again. I will have a slumber party all day on my bed. Awesomeness.

Till then,

Ta.

p/s: I am sorry but I have to add this.

Look away I'm hideous

 XD XD XD guling-guling lagi.

Macam rindu rumahlah kan..

Salaam Alaik

Now now the internet is so freaking slow that it annoys me so much. ( I agree...ni Fareed). -->it was written few days back and I am too nice to let this makcik "enterframe" anyway.

Gaaaah...

Today was my bad hair day. I mean literally. I am just too tired to think and my lids will be closed at any moment now but I have a record to do. And to tepuk2 following the synchrony also, I am out of it. People are clapping upwards, me doing it the wrong way.People clapped but i didn't. I clapped but they didn't.  I am too messed up now.Poor kid sitting next to me who was apparently trying to follow my steps. HAHA..I am bad at performing anyway.

I had been fighting really hard to keep my eyes open during class since this morning. And whatever drugs we were learning, I think, 0.001% went into my head but I diligently wrote down whatever the teacher was saying.It was Pharmac class by the way.

 And then there was posting. The OBG posting. The posting that I "like" the most. Seriously I do.

I mean, I don't mind people teaching me and all because that is what my purpose of coming here. To learn as much as I can. But as you see, my mind has already wandering to have lunch and paying the least attention to whatever you are saying. It is nice to have someone teaching you, showing you the methods etc but can you do it when early in the morning when my level of enthusiasm is high. Not when it is near the time to go back and feed my stomach? It is a plain torture. And you saw us glancing at the watch every now and then. But hey,you said, you have another bus to catch isn't it? *sigh*. It was hot this afternoon and my head was throbbing like mad. I skipped lunch to get some sleep. Because later I had my Pharmac practicals at which I carelessly spilled the mixture over my friend's book. The teachers asked me question but I didn't know what I was babbling. At least, I tried. For whatever I was saying, I don't think they'd understand because I was a lil bit confused my self at that time. hoho.

Who am I to complain anyway?

And tomorrow, I hope nothing comes my way and now I am just earnestly hoping to have a good night sleep.

Oh haven't I tell you yet? We will be having College Day tomorrow and we Malaysians just knew we had a slot for us to perform. Yeah, thank you very much.

closure.

Humans are annoying freaks
so are you and you.

and yes, me too.

so, good night.

it is so fluffehhhh!!

Salaam Alaik

Thursday is holiday again. I am kinda liking this term. The more holidays there are, the better! So keep 'em coming! Waking up early in the morn is a pure torture. And it adds the torture even more when you see your house mate on the mattress just outside your door, snuggling comfortably. One word. Jelesi. I have changed my posting this week from Surgery to OBG. Weird I know. Nobody back home called it OBG. My sister surely can laugh her head off if she heard me talking "it's OBG here" because for sure she'll be asking "what is that? Korang memang kelakar. Budak grad india memang asek kena gelak.term korang tak kena langsung" and on and on. 

I had seen ultrasound for the first time in real life and it is an exciting moment to watch one little creature inside moving its jaws up and down. Cute little things. I couldn't help smiling but trying to keep the straight face all the same. The mothers that I saw in the outpatient department were young. Even younger than me and having their first baby already but no offence, they looked much older than I am. Is it the height? No I doubt that.

So here's a feast for the eyes. If you wanna call it a feast, seeing the wonderful things in India. 

You have seen ponies and cows. Here's something extra. Gajah Ok? GAJAH ON THE ROAD!

Christmas in September. Only in JSS. *angkat-angkat kening*

Monyet besar-besar banyak berpeleseran di muka bumi JSS. 

Santek kaaan? Ha mai la datang umah.

My friend's. Mine is hideous. I got D or E for Art. So you know..

Our definition of Facebook. Korang ada ke?

Ok.Mysore that still make me feel in awe with India. What you see on the road is different everyday. It is just that we are too busy to observe the things around us because we have unnecessary things going on in our head. Kan? Jadi baby lagi bagus. I read somewhere that if you want to be happy try to feel amaze by something simple. Macam tengok bintang. or tengok bunga. And I believe it's true. =) 

Now moving on to Hospital action!! Wehuuuu!!

The final year students were busy taking case history. And I was busy snapping photos here and there. 

 Well yeah. It need to be done secretly. Mana tau ada cikgu ke kat dalam tu. So I was hiding behind my notebook. Secretlah sangat kan?

This is a female surgery ward. The floor is not that clean but what choice do we have? Kalau pen jatuh kena letak sanitizer. Tapi beg??

Lobby. Duduk bersila at the corner next to the stairs is a normal thing hey.

Outpatient Department. A bit boring because we had to stand for hours and even there were patients, I was not able to understand them. I have to learn Kannada.  A must.

The same. with more people sitting around waiting for their turns.

Classic, eh? Fit for filming a ghost story or thriller kinda movies. Takyah letak effect extra-extra. Jimat. Ada cerita tamil paling mahal baru keluar. Semua boleh pegi dolod. Rajnikanth berlakon. XD

Tempat cuci tangan lepas pegang-pegang sana sini. Since I am only in the third term, takde canlah lagi nak pegang-pegang. Berani pun tak.

Lame attempt to snap unknowingly with crowds of people. Even standing in the middle of the lobby, cold stares were everywhere.

If you need blood transfusion, you need to pay for it. I mean, pay for the blood. Buy the blood. Nothing is free here madam.

Secretly snapping behind the curtain. The other side was a room full of doctors and professors. I'll be dead if they caught me doing this during OPD.

I forgot to snap the male surgery wards. I am telling you the smell was unbearable sometimes and the sight was never pretty. Too many ulcer cases and scrotal swelling. Working here will be a good practice for your patience, so they say.

After watching these two bunnies, I miss my hamsters the late Radhu,  Karpet and their only two surviving boys who turned gay ( since Mummy didn't want to buy a female hamster anymore)

Ok peeps. I think that's all for now. Later I will snap the OBG wards and all. And around Mysore too. Mysore banyak Mat Sallehs lately. Datang untuk Yoga kot. Should I snap them too?

Life is short alright.

Salaam Alaik

Sometimes when I read of how people really stand to what they really believe in, I feel like I am an ignorant who lives in her world caring less for other people. I want to be that person who cares, and stood tall of my opinion, of my faith but I feel that I just failed. I think my life is too important for all those things. I think what I eat today matters more to me. I think too much of my own comfort than those who are more unfortunate than I am.

I feel really selfish at times when I see friends that give their amount of time and hard work for their passion, be it in the work,study or religion wise as I toss the thought away and thinking I have a better life than doing all those stuff. Caring more of what I am feeling,wearing, eating makes me  feel like a loser at times. Seriously.

My time is short. Why do I feel this world is much more important than the other one?

What should I do now?

Bummer bummer bummer.

Salaam Alaik

I am tired at screaming and yelling all day. Not that I am doing anything sporty or any kind of that sort.

Oh well, that is what I do best anyway. 

Time to stuff some food and compensate those calories burnt due to screaming. Yeah, screaming burns some calories. So shut up. 

Ta.

Tipulah tak pernah ponteng kelas.

Salaam Alaik

I thought after going back for Raya, it will trigger the eagerness to learn more. Apparently it did not. Still the mood of lazying around looks far more interesting than those ever so thick book that I don't know when it will be opened and read. Sad isn't it?

And I miss my family so suddenly. and the friends too.

And Facebook does not look that interesting somehow and so is this blog.

And I get moody too often but I come around quickly though.

And I don't really understand what the teacher is saying in class and have to listen REALLY hard to make out what they are saying. or i'll just go and bother my friends next to me.

And Mysore is getting really hot which is a bit weird as we are supposed to be heading to winter. Global warming very much maybe?

OK I am off to class now. Ta.

I am bloated.

Salaam Alaik

Hello peeps. It seems the cows in India are much much larger than the ones back in Malaysia. And most of the cows have these long sharp horns and they are mostly black and white. They like to dig through the garbage from what I noticed. And yeah, they practically rule the road.

This one is HUGE! honestly. 

and it was next to a bank I withdrew my money from.

Anyhoo,

it was nice having a get together with all Malaysians here. We are small in number alright but we get along very well I must say. It's like having a second family when the real ones are so far away from you. 

I am bloated and sleepy and happy and content. Good Night folks.

Rayalah.

Salaam Alaik

Saaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaad =(

Having to go back to Mysore makes me feel saaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaad.. This is saaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaad..

Anyhow,

Have a great Raya everyone. Mine was a blast somehow. It is just a bit sad as Nagela Lohson is not around. Hence the family ain't complete.

Ampun maaf dipinta atas segala kesalahan. Sama ada yang nyata, tak nyata, sengaja atau tak sengaja.Those who sms'ed me,  I am very sorry too for not replying. Calling Nagela Lohson until it went out of credit. Thanks anyway for still remembering me.

Excuse the messiness of Nenek's room and that little boy is Siddiq, my baby cousin. And can you spot the not? teeheehee..

Note to self.note to self.note to self.

Salaam Alaik

Hmmm..how to say this eh? I am having a major embarrassment right now. For the past 2 hours actually. So you guys knew about my plan going back this Raya right? And I have been telling EVERYONE I am going back like 2-3 days before Raya.. But my friend came up with a plan of going back earlier like 3 days before the supposed date due to "the availability of going back early" if you know what I mean, and I immediately agree with the idea, so to speak.

So, I called up Dad that evening and telling him about my plan and all, asking his permission to go back early because HE is the one,after all going to pay all the extra expenses for the change of flight.. and Dad said OK but let's make this a surprise to Mum. I am, of course simply excited and delighted of the thought. So I agreed and did everything need to be done for the date change.

BUT here comes the blunder.

Dad was asking me to mail the itinerary to him. I did that almost immediately I confirmed my seat but the problem was I didn't send it to Dad's mail directly but instead I sent it to a Yahoogroup whereby me,my sisters, my Dad and my Mum and not to forget, the pakciks and makciks of my neighbourhood are the members. So my itinerary with the statement of I am going back this Saturday with the "mwahs" intending to be for my father was sent to the group. Omaigod. The embarrassment! I feel like burying my head under the sand right now. =(

and yeah, it is no longer a surprise for Mum. I kept the secret only for a day it seems. *sigh*

indeed indeed.

Jadi Ayah, tahun ni tak payah raya BSS.. Jom raya Damansara!

A small update for ibuayahakakangahadek

Salaam Alaik

My flu is no where near better, my cough seems getting worse and my mouth ulcer is not killing me anymore.

Other than that, I cannot wait to be back home and celebrate Raya with the family. Miss you guys loads!

= )

Mood melankolik dan mengantuk sikit2

Salaam Alaik

So I thought about writing something but nothing came out right the way I wanted it to be. Trust me there are lots to be talking about once you stepped your foot here but to tell them the rightful way seems hard on me. I don't know why. Life is the usual, not pretty hectic for the first week of schooling. I have not open a single book yet to read. I guess I am still caught up in the holiday mood. Well, from what I heard this term is going to be one joyful relaxing term. So I am cherishing it as  long as I can.

Nohara went missing. It was a bit depressing. tapi nak buat macam mana..takde rezeki. Kalau jumpa balik, pasti riang gembira. Dah cuba dah Aten punya doa hilang barang tapi dah omos seminggu pun tak nampak kelibat Nohara. What to do.. what to do..

OT was a bit depressing too. I hope I will find the solution once I am back in Malaysia. The hospital is beyond words. I cannot describe it to you as you have to see it for yourself. Later lah, when I have the guts to snap the pictures and all, I'll try to do so and show you guys how does it looks like.. I saw rectal examination too today. It was not fun seeing one poking the other's butt when you are fasting. Poor people. In pain and embarrassment but again, what can you do.. it's a charity and a teaching hospital.. That is the price to pay.

Anyway, toodles all. May we have a blessed Ramadhan~

Hari pertama ke sekolah.. Bolehlah..

Salaam Alaik

Like a kid's first day at school, mine was pretty much the same i.e the anticipation, the butterfly (sikit-sikitlah). But I cannot help myself from dozing off few minutes before my posting ended. My roll number has changed from 78 to 51. That's a long way,isn't it? Second year is different than the previous because starting this year, we are being posted to the hospital. My first posting is Surgery. So these 2 months I will be going to the OT and the surgical ward. I just had my first glimpse of the ward earlier this morning. Yeah, it was not a pretty sight. Or the smell either. But this week we will just be doing only classes in the morning. I just had my measurement done for the scrubs and that require them 2 weeks to finish it off.

Being out here made my head aches terribly. Even as I wrote this, my head is still throbbing endlessly. Maybe I will go to sleep early today. I personally think Mysore has a nice weather but not a very nice surrounding. You know, the honking, the smoke and all are what made my head aches non-stop for today. Even the first day, the auto drivers still want to mess with us. I will adapt somehow I know. Hey, I survived for a year here. Despite having to share one small washing machine and a one-door fridge for the 18 of us, I must say we've been doing pretty darn good.

Anyhow, Ramadhan is coming. I hope mine will be better than the last. Ameen.

p/s: I miss everyone back home. Do you miss me? hee

tampak lebih ceria + kurang sinis..ke?

Salaam Alaik

Hello~ I'm Lindsay Lohan..*taktaw la kenapa tapi sejak tengok ada satu show ni waktu exam dolu-dolu eveytime nak cakap hello mesti teringat phrase ni.pengaruh buruk isk..isk. tapi dia catchy* But then after the Hello.. I tend to slow down my voice or just say it on my mind the "I'm Lindsay Lohan" part because no one, I assume..will understand the joke.

penuh gigih mencari,baru jumpa part ni.lima saat je.play la cepat.after this you can greet me with this Hello. pastu kita gelak sama-sama.=D

p/s: tamo balek hindia.tamo..tamo..tamo.

Sun tanning tomorrow.Hohoho

Salaam Alaik

While doing the dishes (eceh..eceh), a thought came into mind about Facebook. I love reading people updates and statuses. I rarely update my status lately because from my point of view, it seems that what you write more or less resembles you. I'd rather have people read my blog to know what I am thinking. Or so you think the kind of person I am. As everyone can see, minus those who still reject the idea of having Facebook, there are a few number of people in facebook from what I observed..

1. people who like to curse using the most extreme word you may find. or at least I found it to be extreme.*i budak baik hence the blogname.=D*and it's very long..very.
2. people who constantly update what they have been doing. It is like a similar concept to Twitter.
3. people who are endlessly adding people as friends or other people adding them. Whichever works.
4. people in love.
5. people who love to quote.
6. people who like to talk about current situation ie.religion, politics etc
7. facebook gamers
8.ohyeah almost forgot. THE korean fans.

There are lots but I am too lazy to list them all. I don't find these people irritating/annoying on daily basis but only once I think. During the korean madness, ( suju is realeasing a new album or single or something idk) there were nothing except korean fans updates. Laki ini hensem. Laki ini body lawa. Laki ini ada gigi cantik. I nak kahwin dengan laki ini etc etc. I know it's a small thing but seriously these people.. But I enjoy it pretty much reading all these everyday. I memang takde life. sob..sob.. maka jomlah belanja makan. U drive pelis.

Facebook is not merely a tool to entertain yourself somehow because I found a lot of everyday matters posted by my friends over the Facebook. I am too lazy to watch the TV for news. You can do lots with Facebook. You can preach, you can sell, you can buy, you can gossip, anything you name it. You can even make your own contest..

BUT I think I secretly judge everyone on the Facebook but of course, based on what will their statuses say and prolly a tiny bit from their profile pictures. heh. My daily muse is from here > www.failbook.com

So people, think before you update  but it's OK if you are "the-hell-with-these people.-I'll-do-as-I-please!" kind of person. Do as you wish.

Good night.

Kena bangun pagi teman ibu pergi pasar tani. I anak mithali. Tenkiu.

Salaam Alaik

I want to write something really but somehow, I remembered something back in my mind and it stopped me immediately. It is just that the question that bugs me really is just that does my writing contribute something to the society? It is the thought that to contribute to society in words and in action even the slightest bit that kept me from writing. You know, since my writing is nothing but merely words on what I see, I feel, I heard, I read, etc. But my capability to contribute in words is lacking.You know, to construct sentences the proper way since mine, well mostly.. are cynical. I want to but it is hard. I think I have talked about this before. kot..

Anyway,

Meeting friends was AWESOME.

Highlight at the mo.Ayu lost the ticket to UKM. not entirely my fault. i think. AHAHAHA

I miss all of my friends somehow. Catching up is the best thing to do. Facebook and all is not the same as meeting face to face. but I do have problem in transportation since I cannot drive lah kan. Dan dan lah rasa menyesal tamo belajar bawa kereta dolu-dolu. Padan muka. But I have my saviours all right. Thanks Ibu Ayah.

Ain, you will be my saviour juga kan?will you? *mata kaca-kaca ni*

Thanks to Ayu, Zira, Leha, Ninot, Zai and Belle for the night. Thank you so much.

p/s: penatlah menggoda Ayah dan Ibu ke Singapore. Carik spot lain ke?

Few days in Malaysia and my tummy is bloated oredi.

Salaam Alaik

I talked a lot. Sometimes excessively. Be it in writing or off writing. Sometimes, I felt that it is an annoying trait but sometimes I find it OK. but most of the times, it is a tad irritating. because I have a high pitched voice and when I am overly excited about something it will be a bit OTT (over the top). I don't like it when I am in the OTT mode because I will only realize it after quite a few moments. Then only I managed to tone down my voice. I realized my voice is irritating even to myself at times. honestly. haha

If I am to find a partner in life, he must be the one who can tolerate my quirks. Even to the smallest one and most importantly, will not find another. Bahahaah..so suddenly lah kan cakap pasal partner in life. This is all Daddy's fault. He was the one who brought up the subject when he was in my temporary room. My room is not yet ready.Tomorrowlah I will go and kemas-kemas.. Daddy, I have no thinking of getting married yet. Bringing up the subject pun I tak suka. Why? I dunno. Maybe because it reminds me that I am not going to be Mummy's and your little girl anymore and I hate the thought of it. and it reminds me too that I am not getting any younger. Blergh..siapa suka jadi lagi tua?

Dah. Jom pegi minum teh hijau!

Ada budak nangis kena cabut gigi. Tamacholah!!

p/s: ain nak buat entry prank-prank kononnnnnnnnnnnnnnn...

Malaysia wangi,bersih dan populasi orang kencing tepi jalan adalah sikit.

Salaam Alaik

Hello!!!!

Miahahah..It is awfully nice to be back home though the weather is really hot I must say. I am very lazy to go out and see the world for the first week I am in Malaysia. I mean, right now because it has been ages since having a pure satisfaction of sleeping in until 11am in the morning. Don't you shake your head as if you have not done this before. Heh. But as soon as I woke up, Mum will drag me along to have my breakfast/lunch but I went willingly of course.

Tomorrow I will be following Dad to work. We'll stop by Nugrahan first to settle few things. I malas taw nak ikut tapi nasib baik esok Ayah kerja separuh hari. Boleh ajak dia ronggeng ke? Hihihihihihi.

Ok all, toodles.

Selamat sampai ke penghujung... buat masa ni.

Salaam Alaik

Alhamdulillah.. Everything has now finished. FINALLY. Well, I do not know where to begin. Do not know how to summarize  my entire journey of completing my first final exam as a medical student in India either. Sure it is not easy. Exams are never made to be easy anyway but this a different kind of way for me to learn. Living in India is not an easy task either. Constant temptations of having cheap air flight tickets going back home came way too often tapi iman di hati masih kuat. Kih kih kih. Even going back twice a year pun dah kena sindir-sindir. Not like my sisters who need to put up a year long rindu then coming back home cuti macam lama gila, tiga bulan compared to mine sebulan je. but still, Alhamdulillah. adaaaa juga cuti.

It is so exciting to think about going home. Not like I already had a plan on what to do soon I arrived there but just the thought of being home, being close to your loved ones is more than enough already. As soon as my house mates went back, I was being alone and being struck by homesickness. Twas sad I tell you and I can't even concentrate on what I was reading. Missing home, thinking of hugging your parents and siblings tightly,you know the usual. I really am missing them now. Six months are my limit of having enough Indian-ness around. Six months and not more. Loathing everything around you is not healthy.

Thanks to those who really concern of me staying alone. I never told Mum I was alone. Haha. I just do not you want to be scared, Mummy. or worrying over things that should not have been worried. I never told anyone back home I was staying alone. I guess I do not want them to fuss over me either. It's OK. I have friends here. I can take care of myself. I have proper trainings before.. of staying alone. Hahaha.

Monday sounds so nice right now. Anyone named Monday must be pretty.Ok I am crapping. What the heck, I am happy anyway. Teeheehee.

Close your book and dream pretty things. =)

Countdown jom!

Salaam Alaik

Out of all of my pet peeves, the one I found annoyingly annoying is to those who cannot stop WrItInG LikE ThiS FoR EvErY siNgLe ThiNg TheY WriTe. bE iT inThEir BloG or UpDaTinG ThEiR FAceBook StAtUs. SomEtIMes I Can ToLerATe it BuT DuuUUUUdE yOu ArE A gUY. SHoULd yOu NoT WrITe A bit MOre MaNLy? I wRitE moRE ManLY tHan You ARe.. And ThiS iS fREakinG TiRinG. How DO yoU mANaGe To PuSh ShiFt BuTton aLtErNatELy? BaaaHHh... It is A sKILl MAnnNNnn... A sKiLL!!

Do not feel offended.

Haha..

Seriously, if a girl wants to write like that I can accept it for once in a while because you know it looks like something a girl would have done, but a guy? Na-ah. I prefer those who write in full sentences without short forms or any of that sort. It's the internet! You pay per hour or bytes (ke? lol.bimbo alert) not by how many sentences left. 

I don't know, some people memang banyak complain. Like me. Ahaha..

Poor English dudes losing to the Germans and I was listening to the commentators talking about the bad English moves. Streaming was not that bad though.

No I was not born like this. It takes time to acquire the skill. lol.

Lepas exam patut marathon tido.

Salaam Alaik

It was amazing to think back how the eight of us can survive this. I never thought facing exam will be sooooooo let's just say unexpected. I have never been through the 5 days in a row exam totaling up to 15hours of scribbling down whatever you know or just making it up if you think it made sense. Well I was lucky for the last paper yesterday. We've got to see some drama amidst all the tension of answering the biochemistry paper. A girl collapsed soon after the question paper in her hand. It was most probably due to the lack of sleep and food she has been getting for the last five days and cracked at last.

Seriously, students in Indian Universities are sure tough lots minus those who cheat lah.. It was funny why not one soul ever tell me how the exam system really works because it sucks, I am telling you. At least have some mercy. Give us a day break between the subjects. But hey, those before us can do it why can't we, eh?

There were a few times I thought of giving up but realizing it is a battle I have not yet faced. Why should I?

I made some blunders this exam. But all I and you too can do now is to hope for the best and pray.

p/s: Thanks to those who are willing to lend me their ears and eyes for this girl who just cannot stop whining.

Bidding them farewell was sad. Including those in the car too of course. 

Tepu tepu tepu tepu tepu tepu

Salaam Alaik

There are two things in my mind right now. Ok tipu bajillion other things on my mind tapi ini fokus utama

1. Exam. So need to finish reading all these urm.. these.. urm.. ilmu .. haha ok i need to find the right and appropriate word because I cannot think of any right now

2. HOME. MALAYSIA. RUMAH ADA ATAP.ZINC PUN JADILAH ASALKAN ADA ATAP BUKAN BATU JADI ATAP. JALAN BERSIH TAKDE LEMBU PERASAN MERAYAU KAT TENGAH2 JALAN. MALAM YANG AMAN DAMAI TAKDE ORANG HON SELALU. BOLEH GAYAT TENGOK KUDA KAT TEPI JALAN. OK BUKAN KUDA BESAR TAPI PONIES ADA OK DEPAN RUMAH NI.JADI CAM DAH KURANG GAYAT.TAPI MASIH LAGI GAYAT TENGOK BABI JALAN2. BOLEH GAYAT LAGI DAN TENGOK PENUH DISGUST KALAU ADA ORANG KENCING TEPI JALAN SAMBIL BUAT MUKA, GELENG2 KEPALA DAN CAKAP EWWWWWWWWWWW. jadi cepatlah balik Malaysia.

tulisan besar tanda excited gila-gila nih.

Enough I think. Should bury myself deep in books. kononnyalah.

nak tengok gamba ponies? nak tak? nak tak? nak tak? tempat korang ada ke ponies? MUAHAHA..

See..see.. ada ponies.. teringat cerita My Little Ponies.

p/s: Semoga semua orang berjaya menjawab soalan dengan betul dan cemerlang. Eceywah!
p/p/s: blogger dah majuuuuuu..jadi pasni mesti akan rajin nak tukar-tukar kaler blog. perlulah purple ok atul? for now.heh.

Tak elok marah-marah. Nanti muka kedut nampak tua.

Salaam Alaik

It's not funny when I think back if people are holding their grudges against us. Not funny at all. We are not perfect hey, but you are not either. We may think life is long so what is the fun of it if we treat everyone nicely. We ought to have some memories to think back when we are older and say, hey I did that. How cool I was? Have you done it too? You don't? Then your life is boring.

But how can your life be so exciting and wonderful by treating other people badly? People will cherish you by your actions? because you look cool doing those stuff? and you are proud of it?

Human beings are complex.
You be good, not creating any problems = boring
you do bad, not acting like you are supposed to = cool and exciting

Life is not exciting merely by treating people the way you want. Everyone have their right to be treated equally   no matter the race, the class, the face etc. And if you say let bygones be bygones, then let it be. Why must you tell the stories to the world for everyone to know and cursing others if you say you are so over it?

On the other hand, those who were treated unfairly, it was a life experience and you should take it as a lesson.  If you don't like the way people treat you, then you shouldn't do the same. Be positive instead of lashing it horribly. I mean, if it's like 10years already. First few days or weeks I think it is understandable. =D

My only grudge or so I thought or the thing that I remember someone did to me is to:

the bibik who ate the whole six donuts Mum bought for me. like 4-5 years ago.

p/s: I never understand the concept of bullying your juniors because I have never been bullied before. Lol. but  hearing the experiences of my friend, I felt jealous at times. heh.

p/p/s: I am apologizing to all if I ever did anything wrong. Nak pekse haruslah mintak maaf. hohoh..tapi tak tak, memang mintak maaf sungguh-sungguh ni.

p/p/ps: cuki, hepi besday. may we pass our exam and be in the second year!

Rindu Malaysia. T_T

Salaam Alaik

"We live here for a reason : because nobody else can" 

Eben. 

I like few quotes from 30 days of night. Few of 'em can be applied to the situations we are going through. Not that living here means we have to deal with ugly vampires and all but I think you know what I mean. 30 days more and the dawn will come!

Now, back to work! back to work! back to work!

p/s: nadteng yang bolehlah tahan "tinggi", selamat hari jadi. Moga dimurahkan rezeki dan dalam rahmatNya selalu.

Terasa nak buat tarian kemenangan. =D

Salaam Alaik

My dear dear dear people (while rising my hand with such grace like The White Queen of Wonderland), though the weather is excruciatingly hot and the office made me run here and there today, nothing I am telling you, nothing can ever tamper the feeling I have right now. So it is confirmed, I will be back to Malaysia for more than a month. A month looks short for those who get their full 3 months winter break but what matters most is that I want to go home if possible right now. I miss home terribly.

and the best thing is it is less than 35 days for me to be back in Malaysia. Yeeha!

But then again, I have to get myself in the mood for study. It is not that I didn't study at all because right now I am sitting for the 3rd internals, but you know, there are times when you feel really really lost and starts questioning yourself what am I really doing here? Well, maybe that is just me. The BIG exam is just like another 3 to 4 weeks. It's gonna be tiresome and brain exhausting because 5 theory paper, 100 marks each for 5 days in a row. I can guarantee you some weight loss there. let's just say i have done some experiments on my own. lol

omaigod i really want to go to orlando universal studios. fareed, should we make some plans now? ada pakej murah pulak tu.. i want a wand for myself. i want! i want! i want!

p/s: The Israelis are mad. How can your defend mechanism be heavy military fires against the so called knives and clubs? Kau ingat kitorang bodoh? What the world has come to. *sigh*

p/p/s lagi: uda busuk.angkat le tipon. ni panggilan khusus dari india neh. haih. selamat hari jadi udang. may Allah bless you always.

pening cerita pasal organ2 kat bawah.

Salaam Alaik

YEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!

yariba andre andre..

kecoh baru habis teori paper. tapi i lapar.

babai lah all.

Nak exam dah ni tapi tak sedar diri.

Salaam Alaik

I have lost count already on how many times I had my panic attacks. Haha. I panicked. I roamed around the house. I went to see Atul in her room. I went lamenting to Fareed. I made some tea. I ate chocolates. I buzzed anyone available on my YM but of course, only the selected ones. Tapi ceh, sume orang tadek or just pretending they were not there sebab takmo layan yours truly.. Terus bergurindam jiwa dan tidur. Not that I didn't want to study. Mysore was out of electric at that time and it is RARE to have such a cool night during summer. So, sleep was on the top of the list. Heheheh.

Right now. I have loads more to memorize. If it only requires me to read and not reciting them back, I can certainly pull that off. Like kacang begitulah kan. But as we all know, medicine is all about memorizing. So here we are, medical students who really need lots of Omega-3 in their food but couldn't find any decent fish to cook. Hence, the ordering from outside. Hahaha. Alasan walhal pemalas. but seriously, it is hard to find fish here. We saw fish stall on the way to school but it is next to a pork stall.

Sorrylah. I takde DSLR. Mahupun compact camera. Yang ada kamera fon. Hahaha.Jadi cuba teka?

p/s:  siapa nak jerit kat telinga suro pegi belajar?

Girls know what to do.

Salaam Alaik

Yeah..yeah..the chinese won again. I wanted them to win but not this easy. I want to see Bao Chun Lai play at the very least. This is so frustating. India Open is on June. And exam is around that period of time. If not, for sure I will be dragging someone to go along.

I have this very unsettling feeling right now. I do not know what is it exactly. I have no problems right now aside from my studies that seems to be endless but I will manage somehow, Insya Allah. This is something I cannot explain. I have been trying to figure it out myself and seriously it is troubling me. It is discomforting knowing you are feeling out of sort but you don't know the source.

Maybe I am just being too far from Him and exams put the pressure even more. You know what they say about exam fevers. Some people hangs themselves due to the pressure but no worries, as long as I have my faith with me, I would never even do that.

It is just that. I am not happy with what I am feeling. What is the feeling? I myself don't know.

Such a complicated person I am. Haha.

p/s: I am a girl and I don't know what to do.

Panik panik panik. Pergi tidur.

Salaam Alaik

Aih Malaysia. Eh I mean, aih Malaysian badminton players. The live streaming in India was not that bad, you know. The game points were tallying with what Malaysian TV was showing. I am sad. Maybe now I can concentrate on reading my books. I went to LoyalWorld before the game started, quickly did my shopping and cycled all the way back to home. Just to catch the game. ON TIME.


Sedih..sedih...

Yeah well,luck was not on our side. I am going to give my support to Chinese players this Sunday.

p/s: Tu berapa ramai tak solat maghrib dok jerit-jerit kat stadium tu?

This is what we call killing two birds with one stone.

Salaam Alaik

Daddy's birthday will be tomorrow but as I write this, Malaysia was already 11th of May. Happy Birthday Dad. I know you are reading and if you are not, I will just assume you will one day. I miss you terribly, you know. I wish I can go back home and hug you. I miss hugging you. I miss giving you a peck on the cheek. I miss the conversations in the car. I miss you calling me to tell me about your day. I miss listening to your jokes, though it might be lame sometimes but it made me laugh all right. I miss having a discussion with you in which you will eventually win or I will get tired listening you reasoning your points. I miss your cooking. I miss touching your head after shaving your hair off. I miss your smell after you get back from work. ILU Dad.

Ayah kuruskan perut eh? If not tak muatlah baju nak beli. Hihihi. ilu.

Mummy, Happy Mother's Day. I have no cards or roses to give you. You have always been there whenever I need you. You went through a lot of things to raise me. I miss you too. I wish now you are right here for me to hug and kiss. I miss listening to your voice. I hate to see you cry. I wish I never made you cry but I know somehow I had. I am sorry. I never truly say I appreciate all the things you did for me. I have been rebellious most of the time. It has never been my intentions for you to get hurt. If money can buy, I surely will buy the world for you but I know you don't want that. I know you are content enough to see us grew up as you planned. I hope for nothing but only joy be with you. I love you, Mummy.

Hadiah pinggan besi can loh?

Tetiba macam berair-air mata ni. kehkehkehkeh

Vitamin C lowers progestrone level? A myth or not?

Salaam Alaik

I have been wanting to write about this particular topic actually, yeah, maybe like a dozen more topics I want to write but this one keeps on popping out rather frequently but I do not know why, I simply brush the thought away and begin writing another piece of junk about me and me and me only. Diri ini terlalu vain. Apakan daya.

Baiklah straight to the point kerana selepas bersembang petang bersama Kucing Lapar, tak ingin untuk diri ini bermukadimah panjang.

Kenapa orang nak rush-rush nak hidup berpasangan. Nak berlovey-dovey. Nak bermushy-mushy. Nak ber PDA-PDA? (public display of affection ye bukan personal digital assistant) Yelah, mungkin I am the stone cold hearted one but I admit I have feelings too. Mestilah pernah minat mamat-mamat hensem yang ada. Fokus hensem hensem hensem sahaja. Hahaha. Entahlah. For me, there are more to lives right now than having a boy? a partner? a soul-mate?*wadahek weh baru declare 2 minggu buleh ngaku soulmate* Apa-apalah. tapi I found that having a friend worths a thousand times better than that. Yelah, maybe for those who were already married and have kids would say, having my hubby/wife/kids is gazillion times better than anything in this world. Tapi kita tak. I believe most of us, are not ready for that yet. Most, I say. Sesetengah tu dah boleh dah nak kahwin.

But we are like, right now, in this mad,weird world whereby if you don't have a partner, or you don't have someone to commit yourself with, whether being in a serious relationship or not, you are pretty much uncool,or sad, or odd... Some even cannot bear to think the thought of not having someone to cling to. Come on,man...or woman. Bukannya tak boleh hidup dengan tak bersayang-sayang, tak boleh hidup dengan tak mesej 24jam, tak boleh hidup tak habiskan kredit untuk orang "tersayang", tak boleh hidup tak bergudnait hanimanibanci setiap malam,tak boleh hidup dengan tak showering our love to this one person only. Kecilnya pemikiran kita kalau itu fokus utama kita. Kata nak jadi pemimpin masa depan, tapi dok perabih masa fikir benda macam ni.. Kinda waste, don't you think?

Yang dah ada tu, adalah. Ni yang takde tapi gila-gila nak mencari orang tersayang. Tak semua yang kita nak, kita dapat. Relax. The time will come and as it comes, you will know what to do, kan? God knows what is best for us. It is not like He ever said that You, si fulan/fulanah bin/binti fulan, will not have anyone to share you love for the rest of your lives. Tak pernahkan? Even He said that setiap benda diciptakan berpasang-pasangan. So, chill lah. For the time being, just commit ourselves to the responsibility we have right now. Even that we cannot do, macam mana nak pikul tanggungjawab yang lebih besaaaaaaaar nanti kan?kan?kan?

Okey jangan gelak for those who knew me deep down. I just have this disgust feeling pada orang-orang yang macam tak boleh hidup kot takde bopren/gepren lah hai. Macam matahari tak bersinar, bulan tak terang, dunia gelap gelita,hidup terasa kosong, termenung memikirkan nasib yang malang sebab tadek gepren,tadek bopren? Maaf tapi saya berpendapat sungguh shallow pemikiran begitu.

p/s: Nawa is still looking for a nice-looking rug to match with her room. Kenapa susah sangat mahu mencari rug di sini? Kenapaaaaa?
p/p/s: Marilah semua menonton Glee!!!!!!  hiahiahia..

Hidup menjadi semakin malas. Ada remedy?

Salaam Alaik

Well, I moved into a new house safe and sound. I am beginning to like my new home right now. Bigger space than the previous one.. Ken deco2 sum mo. Nyeh3.

BUT I will not be posting any photo...........................yet. As my room is not fully furnished with the things that I want. Macam rug yang gedik-gedik sikit, cermin, katil pun belum pasang, pillow case nak beli baru sebab ada bantal baru. Hihihi. But so far so good. My study table is "made in Malaysia" one and I like it A LOT. So, hopefully I will be studying more.

Okie dokies,
semoga yang terbaiklah hendaknya untuk diri dan semua. Ameen.

Nak belajar tapi...

Salaam Alaik

Tiada mood untuk study. Lebih kepada menonton cerita duniawi sambil berangan menghias bilik. Kalau boleh dicat bilik tu, dah lama den cat kan.. HAHAHA..tapi takpe, kita mesti make do lah.

Sila doa minggu depan diri ini semangat sikit belajar.

Terasa high bila menari tu, macam mana?

Salaam Alaik

I have been ignoring Daddy's questions on HAVE YOU GET YOUR KEYS YET? Sadly Daddy, No I haven't. My other friends already got theirs and what the person in charge said was that our key to our home will be in our hands this Monday. I have not pack a single thing yet. I think tomorrow I will go and search for boxes to keep my things and I have lot of them. Haihh..We have to move out before May comes, you know and this people said that we gonna get our keys on Saturday. So much the talk lah kan? Rasa geram nak hentak-hentak kepala mamat yang cepat saje encash duit tapi lambat buat kerja.

Something is bugging me for quite a while now but I am really not sure whether to write it down or not because I said it before I don't want anybody to get hurt. So I apologize before if this may offend any of you.

Erm, it is just that I wonder that how some people took off their hijabs easily when coming to new places.. No offence intended but I was just wondering. How easy it is for them to take it off when almost all their life they have been wearing the hijabs? Yes, this is strictly to those who have been wearing hijab since small or since puberty but took it off as they come to a new place. Culture shock very much maybe? I don't know. And the problem with society is, I mean the Islamic community, the friends who share the same faith, the same religion, can compliment on how good she looked without one. Isn't that all wrong? Maybe yeah she looked good without hijab but whatever it is, as a Muslim, why do you want to encourage your friend doing something against her religion?our religion? Can't you keep the compliment to yourself only?

And I really am wondering, how does the doer feel after yanking the hijab off from her head? Does it comes easy?

The thought of doing so came across my mind like, a thousand times before but praised be to Allah, I am still keeping my sane for now. We will not know what I'll become in the future but I hope not for the worse but for the better. I am still questioning how strong will I be if I am in her shoes? How my Iman will stand for all the temptations existed around me for I am only a human. Like what people say, if your foundation is strong, you will never be swayed away but if  there is a lack in reminding yourself, it will corrode away and there goes your foundation. Mungkin nilah saatnya kita cakap, Allah dah tarik hidayah dari kita. Nauzubillah.

For now, seeing old ladies' belly button is not enough to make me taking my hijab off.

May Allah protects me from doing any more harm to myself or those around me that I care and love. Ameen.

p/s: Yelah, tajuk pun tak masuk dengan apa yang nak ditulis but the thought came into my mind so suddenly. Forgive me as it is almost 3 in the morning. Anyway, anyone care to enlighten me?