cynical but always hopeful

2012-02-13T18:09:00.002+05:30

A sigh of relief

Alhamdulillah

and Thank You

From the Middle Earth to Mordor.

2012-01-19T23:12:00.002+05:30

Have you ever live with a friend or a sibling and could not help yourself but wonder why are they being so blissfully weird? One huge probability is that he/she might be a middle child. They said that middle children are introverted, quieter and a bit loner but I don't know I knew some of them are having totally the opposite character.

I am not having anything against any middle child. In fact, after Haziq came into this world , I automatically became one of the middle children too but I guess after having 11years of living as the last child in the family, my symptoms are quite mild or I might just be asymptomatic. But honestly, I did some reading about middle child syndrome and I could not help noticing the comments below. Most of it were rants of all the middle children who seems to think that their parents did not love them enough though their achievements are far more superior than their other siblings. The first child always get praised more and the last will always be the spoiled one or just a brat. And I am not talking about the angsty teenagers' rants but grown up men and women with their own kids. To me that is just like "Woooowww.. I never knew it could be this serious" Should parents give more attention to the middle ones or the middle ones should stop thinking too much of being unloved?

I do have my fair share of experience. Heheh.. I have few of my friends "the middle child" who also complained about more or less the same things. I couldn't say much since I did not know their family that well to say things that I should or should not say. I talked about this with my sister and we think we found the ultimate solution. Do not have only 3 kids. Since the one in the middle will feel he/she will be left alone since they think that the attention of the parents already diverted to the first and the last child. And to prevent that, have more middle children in the family! They can gang up or team up against their parents and bully the first and the last child. HAHA

Anyway, 12th of August is The Middle Child Day. See middle children, everyone is trying to make you happy. Everybody loves you. You even get your own day! Be proud of that okay.

There are some good traits that are exhibited by middle children. These children grow up to be more independent and are born mediators and negotiators. They also tend to "go their own way" when dealing with established ideas. They are innovators and thinkers. Some famous middle children include J.F.K., Madonna, Donald Trump, Barbara Walters, and Bill Gates. Each of these people is an example of just how successful middle children can become with a little extra encouragement from their parents.

Joe Jonas is a middle child too. Well that explains a lot..

and to my sister the middle child, I love you! =P

My exam ends on the 25th. May Allah ease us and grant us success! Amin.

last for this year.

2011-12-30T16:03:00.001+05:30

Signs of a hypocrite

when he speaks, he lies
when he is being argued with, he explodes
whenever he is being entrusted with something, he violates that trust
whenever he promises, he goes back on his promise

khutbah ari jumat. hoho..Just something to ponder on actually.

Anyway, my final exam for finally to finish my second year which is like forever, is just 9 days away. I slept for 10 hours straight last night and woke up scared and panicking. Lol.

I will be celebrating my New Year of 2012 with books and a mug of hot tea to accompany me, and of course, with the sound of fireworks that will be lighted up by my neighbours.

and again, my thousands apology to you and may I along with my fellow friends pass our second year..umm.. gracefully.

Ta

Malaysia.

2011-12-21T12:27:00.000+05:30

Instead of educating the youngsters, blame is put on them. Threats are being made. Yet, questions are being asked on how this generation is going to lead and teach the future generations, when actually the old ones are not doing their responsibility. Responsibility to show the young what is wrong and what is right. why is it wrong and why is it right. what should we do when we are in the wrong and the actions to take when we are in the right.

but sadly, kena tumbuk dan ludah. Haih.

Small things are considered big and the big things are considered small.

As Professor Hubert J. Fansworth said "I don't want to live in this planet anymore".

being grateful

2011-12-18T22:50:00.003+05:30

(Al Baqarah : 216)

Fighting has been enjoined upon you while it is hateful to you. But perhaps you hate a thing and it is good for you; and perhaps you love a thing and it is bad for you. And Allah Knows, while you know not.

A splendid weather.

2011-11-27T13:58:00.001+05:30

Well hello there.

It has been a while it seems. You know when every time you are facing difficulties there will always be a point where you really can not take it anymore and say screw it. I will not care anymore.

I have been there
again and again.

See.. I am not the brightest of all students. I need time to study and even that, I fail to memorise or comprehend what I have been reading. I know, that in this profession I am learning to be, persistence is what I need but it is so hard to concentrate. It is not me to read books everyday. I don't even read story books with that consistency. It is not me to always talk about medical stuff. It is not me to spontaneously answer questions thrown at me. My brain lacks in the speed of processing I guess. I sometimes doubt myself what really am I doing here really. Well if you have never ever question yourself with what are doing right now well then good for you. I have doubted myself and have been feeling what a let down I am when I failed a paper. when I failed to answer a simple question. when people succeed making me feel like a complete loser just because I am not able to deliver an excellent answer.

but again and again,

having a good friend saying it's OK. we have all been there. you'll be good.
having a family saying things will get better. it will not always be like this. we love you.
having a complete stranger saying i pray to god you will be an excellent doctor that will be able to serve your country, your religion and your community.

is a comfort of some sort.

I hope I will be able to realize that I am lucky to have this opportunity and stop second guessing myself.

Salaam Maal Hijrah everyone.

ekjem ekjem.

2011-11-16T22:48:00.001+05:30

What is love?
"What is love - we cannot talk about that.
What is not love - we can talk about. Love is not attachment, love is not
possession, love is not controlling somebody, love is not making use of
somebody, and love is not all that you conceive of. You cannot know love
but you can experience love.
The only thing that we can say is that it is unconditional. If you love
somebody just because somebody is good looking, somebody is wealthy or
popular or this or that, obviously that is not love. But if you're not able
to give any reason at all, then probably you have discovered love. That
love is unconditional and such love is not an imaginary love.
Thousands of people have discovered it and you can discover it. That is the
purpose of human existence. Otherwise life is worthless.
If you do anything to increase the love in you, you will never discover
love. If you could realize there is nothing you could do about it, that is
the beginning of love. In spirituality (in the internal world) the moment
you realize there is nothing you could do about it, that is the moment it
happens. As long as you keep trying, you will never ever get there.
Because that trying (in the internal world - not in the external world) is
the problem. That trying is the thing which takes you away from me.
When all seeking has stopped what is there is unconditional love.

This is what Dad mailed us, miles away. Anyway, I love you too papito.

Esok raya..

2011-11-06T22:24:00.000+05:30

It's Eid tomorrow.

I hope Mum and Dad are doing great over there. I hope my sisters and my little brother are doing OK at home without my parents to fuss over them. I sure do miss them so much. Since exam mood is kicking in again, everything looks very much enticing. A stupid gibberish article attracted me way more than reading medical books right now. Do you know that chewing too much sugar-free gum can cause chronic diarrhoea? Yeah.. I am that much of being distracted..

Anyway

Eid Mubarak people! Have a good one and may Allah bless!

Pacik Malan and Macik Senah yang dirindui

awwwww~

Impian jangka pendek.

2011-11-02T19:36:00.002+05:30

Saya nak balik, rehat-rehat, makan-makan, duduk -duduk baca buku sambil baring-baring, tengok TV, kacau ahli keluarga, keluar jalan-jalan, tak perlu memikirkan masalah kehidupan, gaduh-gaduh dengan adik beradik, jumpa kawan itu pun kalau cuti saya panjang sebab saya suka spend masa dengan keluarga bila masa cuti saya sekejap. Sebab ye lah keluarga mesti diutamakan. Sepuluh hari tak cukup wooooo..

Plugging in my ears..

2011-10-25T21:24:00.001+05:30

Because the sound of firecrackers is really annoying. Suddenly out of nowhere a loud bang will set me to tachycardia. Diwali is tomorrow but my college is having really weird holiday schedule.

Well though I never really been out of contact with my family,the thing I miss most is having a conversation over the net with the webcam on. I am glad having whatsapp installed.. like I get their updates 24/7 but I just miss the webcam session.

As of now..

2011-10-23T19:17:00.002+05:30

The one place that fascinates me so much in an entirely different way is North Korea. It is interesting to see a country full of people that does not know much about us. The excess to internet is very limited and they are forbidden to travel outside the country. How ridiculous is that? I am not entirely sure whether they knew about Malaysia or not... even some people who have the tools of digging information also doesn't know of the existence of Malaysia. Singapore is better known than Malaysia is.. as far as meeting with strangers they will always say.."ohh Malaysia..the one near Singapore.. or Indonesia"

Anyway, I must one day set foot on North Korea.

It was so awkward speaking in public after years of not doing it. I miss those days really. My coherence in speaking is degrading very much I must say.

being in a self reflective mode again.

2011-10-20T23:14:00.000+05:30

Gaddafi is dead

and the one who killed him is an 18 year old.

The ones who used to lead a battle of army back then was 17 years old or even younger. Can't remember really but I knew they were like really young.

but when we were 17 years old, we were so busy finding ourselves..or so they say..

Do you know Sultan Muhammad Al-Fatih was sent away to learn how to govern when he was only 11 years old? What did I do when I was eleven exactly? Main sep tiang or baling selipar, most likely..

Even this little guy has already collected 30 million dollars for charity and he is only 11.

Even now, being a 21 year old, I don't think I have any significant contributions. Pfft..

everyday.

2011-10-18T23:45:00.003+05:30

23

2011-10-17T23:14:00.000+05:30

Going around the hospital today. Monday is officially my exercise day and it's hot like real hot today. Roaming around with a bag behind your back and wearing a thick white coat..uffff.

Something really sad when you see an old man or woman all tied up on a hospital bed, having real difficulty to gasp a breath.. Make me wonder if I ever going to be that way one day.. It is just so sad. Well, you never know the future, right?

yet another very unproductive sunday.

2011-10-16T23:12:00.000+05:30

I am so lazy nowadays.

and procrastination is almost becoming my last name.

I think I should be Cal Lightman. or Patrick Jane. Easy making money like that.

Not that I want to have scarred and horrific past to become like them but you know, their skills are enviable enough.

TGIF tomo!

2011-10-13T21:40:00.000+05:30

I guess we forget once in a while. We are mere human. Even things intended to be jokes can bite us back in the back. When we say, "oh someone cannot take a joke" , we really should consider that. Yes living does not mean to please other people but may we not forget that we do not live just to please ourselves too. There are consequences we need to think of. So here's something I found interesting.. and my, I really need to check myself!!

11 Rules In Islam On Joking

Islam is a perfect religion it has set guidelines for everything, in every walk of life. Following the Sunnah of Rasulullah (SAW) is the key to everything and it shows us that Rasulullah (SAW)) used to smile and joke with his companions:
A man came to Rasulullah (SAW) and said: “Give me an animal to ride on” Rasulullah (SAW) replied: “I will give you the son of a female camel”. The man said with astonishment: “What could I do with the son of a female camel?” (Thinking that he would be given a camel too small to ride). Thereupon Rasulullah (SAW) replied: “What do female camels deliver except camels?” (i.e., that every camel, even if it is fully grown, is the product of a female camel!). (Abu Dawud & Tirmidhi).
Remember that there are guidelines to follow, according to the Sunnah, when it comes to joking, laughing and having fun

1) MAKE SURE you don’t make fun of any aspect of Islam:
Jokes should not involve verses from the Qur’aan, hadith, or any of fundamentals of Islam. Unfortunately, some people tell jokes about the verses of the Qur’aan, Prophets, angels, or they make fun of the Hijaab, the beard, etc. This is the most dangerous as it can make a person a Kaafir, EVEN IF YOU ARE ONLY JOKING.
Sheikh Al-‘Uthaymeen said: “One who mocks Allah, His verses, His signs or His Messengers is a disbeliever because this action nullifies belief.”
Rasulullah (SAW) said: “A slave (of Allah) would utter a word, without paying attention to it, which would result in him going down into the Hellfire further than the distance between the east and the west.” (Muslim)
So the sister in the Niqaab is NOT A NINJAA and the brother who shortens his pants or lengthens his beard is NOT A NERD!
Allah says:
وَلَئِنْ سَأَلْتَهُمْ لَيَقُولُنَّ إِنَّمَا كُنَّا نَخُوضُ وَنَلْعَبُ ۚ قُلْ أَبِاللَّهِ وَآيَاتِهِ وَرَسُولِهِ كُنْتُمْ تَسْتَهْزِئُونَ
لَا تَعْتَذِرُوا قَدْ كَفَرْتُمْ بَعْدَ إِيمَانِكُمْ ۚ إِنْ نَعْفُ عَنْ طَائِفَةٍ مِنْكُمْ نُعَذِّبْ طَائِفَةً بِأَنَّهُمْ كَانُوا مُجْرِمِينَ
“If you ask them, they declare: ‘We were only talking idly and joking.’ Say: ‘Was it at Allah, and His verses and His Messenger that you were mocking? ’Make no excuse; you disbelieved after you had believed” (Surah al-Tawbah 9:65-66)

2) NEVER joke about something that is HARAAM:
Some people, especially the youth living in the western society tend to take the things that are Haraam too lightly and something to joke about. For example, they make jokes about a person being GAY or being ‘high’, having committed zinaa, etc.
Subhaan Allah! We forget that these are things among the worst in the sight of Allah and bring on Allah’s wrath and curse and are certainly NOT things to joke about.

3) Say ONLY that which is true:
Rasulullah (SAW) used to joke but he would only speak the truth.
Someone asked Rasulullah (SAW)): “Do you joke with us?” Rasulullah (SAW) replied: “I do, but I only say that which is true” (Al-Bukhari, Tirmidhi)
If it involves lying and making up stories, then it is not allowed.
Rasulullah (SAW) said, “Woe to the one who speaks and tells a lie in order to make the people laugh at it. Woe to him. Then again, woe to him.” (Al-Tirmidhi)

4) Don’t make jokes to make ‘FUN’ of people:
Be careful that your joking does not hurt anybody’s feelings or harms them in any way. So don’t make those snide remarks or wink behind their backs. Allah says:
يَا أَيُّهَا الَّذِينَ آمَنُوا لَا يَسْخَرْ قَوْمٌ مِنْ قَوْمٍ عَسَىٰ أَنْ يَكُونُوا خَيْرًا مِنْهُمْ وَلَا نِسَاءٌ مِنْ نِسَاءٍ عَسَىٰ أَنْ يَكُنَّ خَيْرًا مِنْهُنَّ ۖ وَلَا تَلْمِزُوا أَنْفُسَكُمْ وَلَا تَنَابَزُوا بِالْأَلْقَابِ ۖ بِئْسَ الِاسْمُ الْفُسُوقُ بَعْدَ الْإِيمَانِ ۚ وَمَنْ لَمْ يَتُبْ فَأُولَـٰئِكَ هُمُ الظَّالِمُونَ
“O you who believe! Let not a group ridicule another group, it may be that the latter are better than the former. Nor let (some) women scoff at other women, it may be that the latter are better than the former. Nor defame one another, nor insult one another by nicknames. How bad is it to insult one’s brother after having Faith” (Surah Hujuraat 49:11)

5) Don’t laugh if someone slips or falls or is afflicted with something:
Rasulullah (SAW) said, “Do not express malicious joy towards your brother’s misfortune, for Allah may have mercy on him and you may be stricken by the thing you made fun of.” (Al-Tirmidhi)

6) Never scare anybody while joking or otherwise:
Rasulullah (SAW) said: ‘It is not permissible for a Muslim to frighten another Muslim.’” (Abu Dawud).

7) Joking should not involve backbiting:
Don’t ever joke about others when they are not there, even if you ‘think’ they wouldn’t mind, as it would involve backbiting.
“(Backbiting is) your mentioning about your brother something that he dislikes.” (Muslim)

8) Beware of excessive laughing and joking:
Don’t be like the one who jokes ALL the time. The amount of joking should be like the amount of salt in one’s food, as too much laughing and joking makes the heart hard, distracts one from the remembrance of Allah and makes you lose respect.
Rasulullah (SAW) said: “Do not laugh too much, for laughing too much deadens the heart.” (Sahih al-Jaami)
‘Umar ibn al-Khattaab (RA) said: “Whoever laughs too much or jokes too much loses respect, and whoever persists in doing something will be known for it.”

9) Choose appropriate time and place for your jokes:
Some people don’t appreciate the time or place for joking and do so indiscriminately. There is a time and place for everything. For example, what might be amusing at a picnic or at the dinner table might not be so amusing in the middle of a Halaqah. Sufyaan ibn ‘Uyaynah said, “….. It (joking) is Sunnah, but only for those who know how to do it and do it at the appropriate time.”

10) Use appropriate language:
Some people resort to immoral or obscene language when joking around, even though under ‘normal’ circumstances they would not even think of using such words. Rasulullah (SAW) said: “The Muslim does not slander, curse, speak obscenely or speak rudely.” (Al-Tirmidhi

11) Acknowledge people’s status:
Some people may joke with everyone indiscriminately, but scholars and the elderly have special positions and rights, so you have to be aware of the character of the person with whom you are dealing. You should also not joke with people whom you do not know or who won’t understand, or it may lead to unpleasantness.
‘Umar ibn ‘Abd al-‘Azeez said: “Fear joking, for it is folly and generates grudges.”

Thus we see that Islam is not against jokes. Good humour is part of Islam and Islam does not go against this because it is typically a part of human nature. A Muslim should develop a positive and optimistic personality, and not a gloomy and pessimistic one that is negative towards life. However, moderation is the key, and it is what distinguishes Muslims from others. We should not go overboard in our jokes and humour, (or in anything else, for that matter) and if we follow the Sunnah of Rasulullah (SAW) , and his guidance, we will certainly not get lost.
يَا أَيُّهَا الَّذِينَ آمَنُوا اصْبِرُوا وَصَابِرُوا وَرَابِطُوا وَاتَّقُوا اللَّهَ لَعَلَّكُمْ تُفْلِحُونَ
“O you who believe! Be patient, and excel in patience, and remain steadfast and fear Allah, that you may be successful.” (Surah Al-Imran 3:200)

My childhood.

2011-10-12T21:58:00.001+05:30

Need I say more?

It's really hard coming up with a title that has any connection to whatever I am posting.

2011-10-11T23:53:00.002+05:30

I see so many people are graduating now. It's the season of graduating they say. Does it makes me feel small? Yep.. sure it did but I am still trying to enjoy a student's life where work politics will still not be in my book. So, should I be thankful? Yea I should and can still be less responsible than those who will be starting to work. Or is my responsibility is actually more than theirs? Sheesh. I am babbling. Exam is a month a way and there are tonnes to read. I don't know how am I going to cram all these into my head as usual but I will manage somehow... Insya Allah.

Being pointless.

Becoming a Snorlax

2011-10-10T23:43:00.001+05:30

Yet another holiday tomorrow. Can't complain on that. How I wish they just compile all these one day- one day holiday into a big fat long week holiday so that I can get back home. Well everyone, Mysore has a new mall. Yeah maybe a tad late but honestly I am grateful. No need for me to travel for 4 hours on the road by bus to go to Bangalore just to buy some stuff. Yep and that will only happen like what? once in 3-4 months? Quite sad for no KFC or McD though. I was really hoping for either of the two to finally be in Mysore. Maybe I should write a letter proposing them to open a new chain here...

Anyhoo, goodnight!

Sunday.

2011-10-09T14:32:00.003+05:30

owhhh I skipped a day..

I don't know why I love old songs..as currently I am listening to my newly downloaded Absolute Golden Oldies. My sisters never quite understand my taste of music somehow. Even I don't know. I don't like loud banging music on my ears but I can stand them once in a while. I love musicals very much too. Blame it on my parents since they introduced it to us since we were small. Back when there was no large TV to watch, my Dad used to bring a projector back home and we will watch The Sound of Music together on the big screen.. or wall. I used to be in charge of handling the projector since the rest of the family is too lazy.

Dad even made us (even my mom) watch The Ten Commandments together for the sake of comparing religion. This was the 1965 film, mind you and do you know how freaking long that movie was? They still have that intermission kinda thing in between the film.

Aih, I missed home.

Bajet.

2011-10-07T22:21:00.001+05:30

Free Human Papilloma Virus immunisation nationwide to prevent cervical cancer

So I'll take the immunisation at home. Well, save me my money than taking it here.

Meanwhile, will there be no increase for us undergrad students living overseas? Heheheheh..

One thing that always made me wonder,

Why budget is translated into bajet? Belanjawan sounds nicer though. This reminded me of a reference book back in school. "Ekselen" .. Can you believe that "ekselen"??!! Come on..

2011-10-06T23:33:00.000+05:30

This is Spartaaa!

2011-10-05T23:42:00.002+05:30

This is madness. It's my 300th post for the past 5 years.
My oh my what have I been rambling on?

To those who don't get the joke, here is a video..

get it? 300? sparta?

Lame I know. But I deserve a monotonous laugh for the effort. And so, Ha Ha.

Goodnight.

Yeay

2011-10-04T23:55:00.000+05:30

The line is so slow right now signalling me to go to sleep. Since tomorrow is a holiday and so is the day after, I will not complain or whine about this. Instead I am going to enjoy my time in bliss for not having to wake up very early dreading to go to college for classes.

I am now posted into Medicine department. We'll see whether any interesting cases show up in this coming 2 months. Right now, most of them are COPD and Diabetes cases. Well there's a snake bite case too but the woman really look sick and she was vomiting a lot just now. I always wonder how it feels when people say hearing other people barfing will eventually make you want to barf too. Well now I understand the feeling.

See these elephants.. The drawings on them is the exact design as what I saw in the palace paintings.

12

2011-10-03T20:47:00.002+05:30

I miss you too little brother..

an epiphany. well not really.

2011-10-02T22:03:00.001+05:30

The more you learn, the more you get scared to eat anything in this world. Not just pig beef chicken or fish. Even vegetables too.

Sushi seems scary nowadays. Or salad. Or any raw uncooked food.

Makes me wonder why no food in a pill being marketed yet for those overly conscious health nuts?

Day 10

2011-10-01T23:31:00.001+05:30

I found that I tend to forget everything I have learnt.. if not everything, most of them.. and by remembering that, it scares me so much to enter the working world. I imagine at that time everything that I need to know should be at my fingertips. With drugs to prescribe, diseases to be diagnosed, procedures to be done. It's freaking me out really.

Now tell me how to remember all those medical jargon when I totally forgot about the chikus that I bought?

Feeling nerdy.

2011-09-30T23:07:00.000+05:30

Quoting from Green Lantern..

There's a saying on Earth "I am only human."
We say it because we are vulnerable..we say it because we know we are afraid.
But it doesn't mean we are weak.

My back hurts so much right now like an old lady having osteoporosis maybe.

Racism.

2011-09-29T22:46:00.001+05:30

It's hard not to be a racist. Even a snide remark can easily put you into the racist category but come on, I don't think every single person is holy or goody-two-shoes enough not to make jokes or comments about racism...and not everyone is over sensitive about it in which I do admit we do have some people acting like their race is so superior over another. Nothing can be said against them or they will start jumping, ready to attack you the moment you said something demeaning about them even it is pointing to one person only not the whole race. Perasan . We must have been a racist, at some point of our lives knowingly or not.

So no need to be over agitated censoring everything. How to expand our mind, to challenge our convictions, if we avoid all the things that are sensitive to be discussed? Well, freedom of speech is freedom indeed but there are limitations and I am sure we know our limit.

Like my mom said,

"biarkan dia usik seterika panas..kot dah sakit baru tahu" - Ibu saya.

I need sleep.

2011-09-28T23:00:00.000+05:30

Honestly I am only on my 7th day but I don't have anything to ramble on really which is so not me since I can really jabber on without stopping and make people really uncomfortable. Either that or make people uncomfortable with my silence and I don't mean it but people do say that I have deadly stares. I blame my eyebrows and squinty eyes for that. Sometimes I'd rather prefer being in silence and it is comfortable once in a while sitting right there doing nothing. Staring into space. Daydreaming. Having a conversation alone in your mind. Plotting a murder or making a plan of saving the world. Yeah..the usual thing.

But communication is the key as my father always said. We obviously cannot live without interaction anyway.

Day 7.

put a lime in the coconut.

2011-09-27T20:31:00.002+05:30

I am bloated.

And that is all.

Still this will be considered as Day 6.

Indifferent.

2011-09-26T21:21:00.001+05:30

I went inside the Mysore Palace for the first time since I have been here for the last three years. The palace intrigued me many times before but unfortunately the time did not permit me to visit it. But at last, this Sunday proven to be a very educational weekend for me. The palace was beautiful and magnificent, even I have to admit that. It was so extravagant with the ivory or gold dust in every tapestry, 700kg golden throne, lots of large elephant tusks, silver door, teak wood ceilings, crystal chairs, big " i forgot where it came from but surely not India" chandeliers and weapons made out of gold, silver, brass, metal..

Honestly with so many gold and colourful history, how can once a rich country becomes like this today?

Anyway, I was sorted into Ravenclaw!! It was such a relief not to be in Hufflepuff never the less. Heheh

Day 5.

Trust not what you see.

2011-09-25T10:11:00.001+05:30

I have this near obsession towards Harry Potter and anyone who is dissing on HP, I get slightly irritated with my mind silently having their own conversation like "Wow, your capability of imagining things must be smaller than a bacteria for you not to enjoy this wonderful make-believe world which is highly unlikely to exist hence the escape from the reality we need and who doesn't want a bit of magic going around?" Mind you I am talking mostly about the books. I am quite thankful no one can hear what I think anyway because I can be very mean in my own head. It's quite.. what's the word.. heavenly? thankful? that my mouth does not work synchronously with my brain sometimes. If not it would be disastrous. I am not nice anyway when it comes to being a cynic. And most of the times I realize the mistake that I make only after the disaster strikes or after being reflective at the end of the day.

My bad since I know not every person need to like the same things. Obviously the world will be very boring to live in. There will be no fan base or anything because everybody loves everything. There will be no profit or loss since everyone is going to the same movies or buying the same books which have the same story line and cover. There will be no pretty merchandises we get to buy. Imagine everyone wearing the same shirt and pants driving the same car eating the same food.

Similar to my disliking of Twilight books, the fans will most probably will try to choke me to death if I start dissing about their most favourite characters. Fans can get really scary sometimes. The same with one HP fan. He's an American yet he talked like a British. He wears different HP shirts everyday. His room is full with HP things. Seriously, how can you have your life being devoted to one character that is fictional at the same time throwing away your own identity?

If you resist reading what you disagree with, how will you ever acquire deeper insights into what you believe? The things most worth reading are precisely those that challenge our convictions. - Author unknown

True enough. I only finished the first of Twilight series. It does challenge me in so many ways.

Day 4 the day I woke up early although it is Sunday.

pottermore u lie.

2011-09-24T20:55:00.001+05:30

How do people survive without electric? Even the trivial things such as washing my clothes I still need the electric to keep the machine going. Keeping me entertained also I require my computer or my phone. I still have books so maybe the entertainment part I can still survive myself. Even my prayer times I depend mostly on my phone or again my computer because I don't know how to tell times or do the calculations by doing the traditional method e.g observing the shadow and so forth.

How do Amish people live without modern technology is still a wonder to me.. I must suck very much if I am being left alone in a jungle without the right things or people.

Day 3.

p/s: Where is my acceptance letter pottermore? it is almost october.

yawning till my tudung pin came off.

2011-09-23T22:43:00.000+05:30

Day 2.

Well the electric finally came back. Thank god. We had our small usrah again after so many months of absence. We were all busy I guess with the exam, raya and all.

A doctor told us today he found his interest in Anesthesia during his internship while before that he wanted to be a pediatrician. Even he told us he knew like 75% of us if being asked will have keen interests in pediatrics. I found anesthesia is kinda interesting but seeing the books they are reading all the time in the OT.. made me think twice about it.

I also love OBG but if possible I would like to push the G away which is impossible. Gynaecology is never a pretty sight and occasionally the smell might get to you too.

But for the time being, I have to be content with the MBBS only..

revamping.

2011-09-22T22:37:00.000+05:30

The thing about living here is like living not up to your expectation so that when you are getting something you are not used to you will be exceptionally grateful. Take for example.. it is very unusual to hear my local friends saying "please" if they are borrowing one of my things and it is a bit awkward at the beginning since I am so used to hear "may I..".. or "can I....please". So when someone is being very courteous adding please at the end or May I or Can I at the beginning a sense of awe came up to me and hold me back momentarily.

I wanted to start a project of writing for 30 consecutive days since I am so jobless right now. See if I can keep it up tho.

Hence, Day 1.

oh wow what a life.

2011-09-20T20:03:00.003+05:30

Salaam Alaik

I am in constant lazy mode nowadays. Waking up early in the morning is like pure torture and I am hoping it to be holiday.. every single morning without fail. Maybe that is the reason why not to sleep right after Subuh? Heh.

I have to admit the sight of this lake is pretty amazing on the evening.

Goodnight folks.

There were times..

2011-09-09T19:42:00.000+05:30

Sometimes I regret myself for things that I should not have done. For what right do I have to condemn other people or God's own creation? I am not perfect myself.

I snapped and not proud of it at all.

My being silence afterwards is only a mere reflection of regretting the deed I'd done.

*sigh*

I guess I am still a normal human being after all.

refleksiharijumaatsemuajangansibuk.rindufemli. gladtohavewhatsappinstalled. Hohe.

oh ain rossa is a family now. who knows the beruang next to my bed back in school is really a family now?

ok i might be into raya mood a teeny weeny bit

2011-08-29T04:57:00.004+05:30

Salaam Alaik

Is it Eid already?

Well, it is only Monday today. If I am in Malaysia, today will be the last day of Ramadhan for this year but I am blessed to be in the land of Maharajahs and will have our Eid a day later. I don't really mind actually. One day is not much big of a deal.

Facebook right now is really annoying. I am preventing myself from loading that page because all that I will ever see is people rejoicing over the fact that they are back in their hometown celebrating with family. I am jealous that is all. So my problem to the solution is not to open it at all for a while. I disabled all the mail notifications too. Over reacting much kan? Hahah. Well actually there is this app for chrome letting you get all the notifications without actually logging into the account which is perfect. It is my choice to stay here instead of going back. And it has been done and I have to bear with it for a couple of days more. After that, the Raya hype will finally go down and life goes back to normal.

It has been a looong time since I was babbling incoherently with no particular topic here. Like ranting or babbling. Dubai post will not be taken into account since it was a post with a direction. I think I am going to clean up my room and toilet today. To get into the festive mood, you know. And prolly blasting off with raya songs while doing the chores. Dendang Perantau is a must of course.

Oh yeah, I made some kuih raya today with my friends and they were awesome.

cilok this from a friend.

pretty eh?

I miss my family. I wish to be with you guys there. I know it will be very sad without me on Tuesday *I know you will. no point of denying that sisters. save my duit raya will ya?* but don't worry, I'll be in the hospital with very much joy looking over some surgeries maybe.

So that's it. My pointless babbling will stop here.

Eid Mubarak! Selamat Hari Raya! Maaf Zahir dan Batin! and many other cliche wishes I hereby bid to all of you!

O.O

2011-08-26T19:22:00.002+05:30

And I hope my decision of not going back is right.

*Afraidoflisteningtorayasongsbecauseimscaredimgonnacrytsk.

I am lazy Jane.

2011-08-20T00:43:00.001+05:30

Salaam Alaik

This blog of mine really is getting abandoned. I sometimes feel like deleting the blog altogether because feeling too much of overexposing myself to the world.. Like overexposing to people I don't know is okay.. as in tumblr. Hoho. But reality is I don't know how to write anymore.

Anyway, here we are more than half way through Ramadhan. This year I will be celebrating Eid in Mysore. Maybe I should start listening to raya songs to get into the mood eh? Then cry a bucketful of tears afterwards regretting the decision of not going back home. Not that I don't want to but I can't. Sadly. I wish next year I will be able to celebrate Eid with my family.

India is okay I guess. It has been only a week+ I am back here. I will have to brace myself for another six months I guess.

Well, goodnight.

well i am just too lazy to write anything because it's holiday tomorrow and i have lotsa other things i think i should do. other than that happy monday!

2011-08-14T22:55:00.000+05:30

Ramadhan Kareem everyone!

Do you know how awesome Malaysia is?

2011-08-05T18:09:00.002+05:30

It is like this awesome.

As promised.

2011-07-08T22:54:00.004+05:30

Salaam Alaik

Ehhh... blogger is different now. This is weird. After so many years, they finally decided to change the interface?

Dubai.. dubai.. From where shall I start? Actually Dubai was on my plan long time ago thinking there will be nothing much to see in Dubai but truth is, a week is not enough yo. Roughly, Dubai made you having an ambition of marrying a super rich guy because it is all about money in Dubai. You'll see girls as young as 12 or 13 maybe, towing a Juicy Couture bag in one hand, Blackberry/Iphone with another and a maid walking behind carrying their loot for the day. Who brings along maids to shopping? You will see families with small kids in the Burberry Kids, Armani Junior and Dior Kids. Tsk..tsk..

Anyway,

As we arrived in Dubai trying to figure out the transport system, the major thing that we found out was if you wanted to travel by Metro to get into the city or your hotel, do not be there on Fridays because the Metro will only start at noon after Friday prayers. So, you either have to take a taxi which is very expensive as they will start the meter on 25dirhams or wait for the Metro. We chose taxi and arrived safely at Rush Inn Hotel. Rush Inn Hotel was a good budget hotel. Our room was clean, the hotel is very near to public transport and nearby there is a pharmacy and a supermarket. Pretty much convenient.

That evening we were picked up by the agency for Desert Safari by 3.30pm and reaches the desert in half an hour time I think. It was super fun and really worth the money. We have dune bashing where the driver drove with his mad skills in the desert (they were trained by the way) and with us inside jumping up and down. Thank God for the seat belts.

The three pseudo Arabian men.

Jakunlah ok.

Huehue. More like Mongolian than Arabian. Lol

These guys deserved standing ovation. I bet they can pass tandem walking test after twirling like mad for 20minutes maybe?

A belly dancer named Lubna if I am not mistaken and she's like an internationally acclaimed belly dancer, that was what they say. Men were gawking at her the entire time while old ladies or the wives trying to eat their food silently. The food was nice by the way and the dances were like a deviation for us from taking more food I guess. I always thought that belly dancing was like a torture to your hips. I winced at times seeing this. Haha.

The closing dance which was extremely weird and horrifying. but most of us enjoyed it. Maybe because it was too funny.

The next day, we went to Dubai Museum which was within walking distance from our hotel. For 3 dirhams there were many so things to see. Dubai Museum was partly air-conditioned because it was a fort previously. It was built with coral rock and mortar. I don't even know what coral rock is but from the texture and the look of it, it looks like corals. Google lah. I malas.

I did not expect much from the museum because from outside the museum looked small but surprisingly the museum filled up our entire morning. It was very interesting in my opinion but history wise, Dubai was pretty much about trading and business.

The mannequins awesomely looked real! It must be scary at nights if you are alone.

Night at the Museum : Battle of Sheesha and drinking teas.

This reminds me when I was small. Ayah pegang rotan ke ha? but one ustazah at school pinched me very hard and made me stand in front of the class. She taught me Quran. I kinda don't like her from that point onward.

Then we walked around to reach the creek to take an Abra to cross the Dubai Creek to reach Deira. It was hot and I am still amazed, how we managed to walk about in the heat. We literally bathing in our own sweats.

Sweaty Malaysian-always-being-mistaken-as-Filipino people.

This is Abra. Only 1dirham to board.

Due to the overwhelming heat, we decided to take a metro, off to Dubai Mall and bought tickets for Burj Khalifa. Before that, I think we went to Deira City Centre. Dubai has lots and lots of shopping malls. Even on weekdays, we saw many people in the mall as if they have nothing else to do but shopping. By evening, we were again being picked up for our Dhow Dinner Cruise. Dhow is basically a large boat to carry things.

If the Dhow went a bit faster during the summer time, I will surely recommend to sit and enjoy the view upstairs for the open-air view because it was hot really even at nights making us appreciate Mysore's weather more. The food was OK but I loved the veg lasagna. Yeah, veg.

View from the dhow. It was really really really nice.

Certainly not for people seeking calm and relaxing dinner that night but it was entertaining to see these ladies. We even took pictures together. Hohohoho.

The next day, we decided to go and see Jumeirah. We traveled a lot by their public transport. What I like about their public transport is there are seats for buses and a coach for the metros allocated for women only. We queued to buy bus tickets to Abu Dhabi the next day but they called us two girls to go directly into the bus. No need to queue. How awesome was that?

So we went to Jumeirah. The first stop is Jumeirah Mosque. There were two volunteers inside the mosque telling about Islam basically. How we pray, why we pray in the directions of Kaabah, why we women cover ourselves from head to toe, why some women wear jilbab and all those stuff. I think it is a good effort to introduce Islam to those who never knew what Islam really is. I am very happy at the end of the tour. Maybe one day I will do the same thing as this.

Jumeirah mosque.

Mercato mall. I like this mall.

Crazy tourists going to the beach at 2pm.

Then we walked around and I think this was the nearest we "the miskins" can get to Burj Al-Arab. Lol.

15 dirhams if you want to see Jumeirah Palace. From the outside.

Jumeirah Palace where the filthy stinking rich people reside. The ambition level increased even more around this point of time.

The residential area. It was very lovely.

Santek~

We then headed back to the city to Dubai Mall. We were gonna have our At The Top: Burj Khalifa experience. I was very much excited about this since Dad went to Dubai and didn't get the chance to go up there.

No idea which building is which.

Burj Khalifa. You should hear the metro guy saying burj khalifa. It was funny.

Current records

Tallest skyscraper (to top of spire): 828 m (2,717 ft) (previously Taipei 101 – 509.2 m/1,671 ft)
Tallest structure ever built: 828 m (2,717 ft) (previously Warsaw radio mast – 646.38 m/2,121 ft)
Tallest extant structure: 828 m (2,717 ft) (previously KVLY-TV mast – 628.8 m/2,063 ft)
Tallest freestanding structure: 828 m (2,717 ft) (previously CN Tower – 553.3 m/1,815 ft)
Building with most floors: 160 (previously Willis Tower – 108)
Building with world's highest occupied floor: 160th floor
World's highest elevator installation (situated inside a rod at the very top of the building)
World's fastest elevators: 64 km/h (40 mph) or 18 m/s (59 ft/s) (previously Taipei 101 – 16.83 m/s)
Highest vertical concrete pumping (for a building): 606 m (1,988 ft) (previously Taipei 101 – 449.2 m/1,474 ft)
First world's tallest structure in history to include residential space
World's highest outdoor observation deck: 124th floor at 452 m (1,483 ft)
World's highest mosque: 158th floor
World's highest installation of an aluminium and glass facade: 512 m (1,680 ft)
World's second highest swimming pool: 76th floor^[28] (world's highest swimming pool is located on 108th floor of Ritz-Carlton Hotel at International Commerce Centre, Hong-Kong)
World's highest nightclub: 144th floor
World's highest restaurant (At.mosphere): 122nd floor at 442 m (1,450 ft) (previously 360, at a height of 350 m/1,148 ft in CN Tower)
World's highest New Year display of fireworks.

wiki

GILO!

Those with super mahal camera must really appreciate their camera now.

Abu Dhabi was our destination the next day. It took us 2 hours to reach Abu Dhabi from Dubai and costing us 15 dirhams which was okay.

This is the Emirates Palace Hotel. Also where the filthy stinking rich resides. The taxi driver said usually they let tourist go in, take pictures but sadly that day was not our day.

Ada rules and regulations lagi kat depan.

Later we went to Heritage Village but due to the awesome heat, we cannot tahan and look around anymore.

Siapa ok gila nak duduk luar makan-makan takdek payung ngan ekon?

We then went to Sheikh Zayed Mosque. It was listed in Listverse for Top 10 Heavyweight Mosque. Worth the heat to see this mosque. It was stunningly beautiful. Oh I just read in wiki, the carpet in the main hall for prayers is considered to be the largest carpet in the world!

Swarovski crystals all they way for the chandeliers.

Back to Dubai by bus. 39 degrees? Like really?

The next morning, as our usual routine, we bought breakfast from Supermarket. Nothing fancy. We were on a budget holiday. I bought "Laban" almost everyday. I remembered when we went to Mekah or Madinah on Ramadhan, there was like people giving off free Laban and dates. Triggered by curiosity, we asked Dad to buy Laban for us. It was yucky but then I bought it again in Dubai just to remember what it tasted like. I liked it actually. It tasted like yogurt drink without sugar or flavour. I am turning old.

We went to Bastakiya after that. Not much things to see here but I like the building though. And it was steaming hot. Mandi peluh everyday.

After going around in Bastakiya, we finally had enough and decided to cool off and so we went to Mall of Emirates. They have this one of the largest indoor ski slope. Orang Dubai tak ada kerja. Semua nak jadi world record.

Aha. One interesting thing that we saw was this. Gold ATM. Because they are too rich they can buy gold straight from vending machine. The cheapest was prolly 1k dirhams. For one ounce of gold you can pay directly by cash or by card, 6k+ dirhams. and then..

These will be yours.

We never really confirmed to enter Ski Dubai because it was quite costly but after much deliberation, we decided to go. For 200 dirhams we had this Superpass where we can do anything we want but skiing. For skiing you need to at least complete Level One and have beginner lesson which was even more costly. For group lesson, 220 dirhams perperson.

Excited faces before entering.

Excited faces again. Yeah, the snow is not real but heck who cares. We were in the world third largest indoor ski slope.

The temperature was -3 degrees. Outside the temperature was 36-37 degrees. Extreme temperature change in one day. Pity our skin pores all right.

We headed to Dubai Mall again to see Dubai Fountain. This was super awesome.

Tsk. Already missing Dubai.

here. not my video but this was what we saw the other day. Really awesome.

To sum up, Dubai is a fascinating place but it is full with Filipinos and Indians. And please Filipinos working in Dubai, not all tourists with a slight mata sepet and tan skin is a Filipino too. *sigh*

Okie dokie.

2 weeks more to go for home. Tak sabar!

p/s: Thanks to Fibi, Dzul, Fahim and Hafiz for this wonderful holiday. If I ever did or say something wrong, I am sorry.heh

2011-07-07T23:22:00.001+05:30

yes yes

i'll blog about dubai later okies?

I am overusing lol. I know.

2011-06-21T23:19:00.000+05:30

Salaam Alaik

I need new books to read. Although I can now download loads of free pdf ebooks online but it is just not the same as holding a proper book in your hands. I wonder if having Kindle has the same feeling like reading from paperback novels. India is stressing me out really but I found out that I like attending postings with people around me who actually have the interest to learn. They help me with the language. I get the gist of what they are talking about sometimes but mostly no. Especially if we are taking case history with an elderly. I am actually learning something rather than like my 3rd term and yeah, my unit teachers are awesome.

I can not wait for July.

At least there is something to look forward to.

Holidays, HP and family. Need I say more?

I am excited about this too.

So, toodles.

hyperventilating.

2011-06-17T20:28:00.000+05:30

can we watch this balik nanti?

i have always imagined the scene on my mind. like macam mana harry kena belasah teruk-teruk after he surrendered himself tu kan. eee esaitednya.

This is for Akak who misses me.

2011-06-08T16:43:00.008+05:30

Salaam Alaik

India was sure funny. It is amazing to know that you will get only 10 days off after one year attending college and also when somebody famous dies, you will immediately get one day holiday. I know it is bad rejoicing to the fact that someone dies but it is hard not to, as we will get a holiday and that is like our source of joy. Being able to spend a day at home doing nothing with uninterrupted sleep,aside from Sunday of course, is a pure bliss.

Today was one of those days but we woke up as usual and went to the class alright early in the morning but by the time all of us ready to board the bus and off to the hospital for postings ( I am posted in Surgery 4th Unit where all the ulcers seem to dominate but the teachers are nice tho ), the bus drivers refused to take us.

Why?

Because apparently there were two wild elephants on rampage in Mysore. They passed by my college I think. Sure there would be lot of fun seeing the elephants stamping on the uni's property but sadly that did not happen. The saddest thing about this was one person was killed.

You don't have to understand the swirly-whirly words to know what's going on actually.

BANGALORE - TWO wild elephants trampled one person to death in a three-hour rampage in the southern Indian city of Mysore early on Wednesday, causing widespread panic, local officials said.

A spokesman said the jumbos entered the city from a nearby forest at about 6am and 'wreaked havoc in a suburb by trampling one person to death and caused panic across the city.'

The victim was a 55-year-old man who had come out of his house in the Bamboo Bazaar area of Mysore on hearing a commotion. He was trampled to death and died instantly.

One elephant barged into a women's college compound and roamed menacingly in the grounds, while the other got into a residential area.

The spokesman said schools and colleges have been closed for the day and extra police deployed as a precaution, even though forest rangers and officials from Mysore zoo managed to capture the animals and tranquilise them.

State forest department officials said the young jumbos came from a forest about 35km away with two others, who remain at large on the outskirts of the city, which is 140km from the tech hub of Bangalore. -- AFP

What I don't understand is, you already knew that these wild elephants are agitated, angry probably even scared but a lot of those who were watching keep on yelling screaming and throwing pebbles at the elephants. You don't have to be a "wild" elephant to be angry to such treatment. It's a simple logic actually.

I laughed at first when they said they are cancelling the day due to elephants roaming around in the city but well it seemed to be one pretty serious thing after all. People, elephants on the road is a normal thing in Mysore but wild elephants on the loose killing people and cows is not.

It's a beautiful day today.

p/s : No Ayu, short posts are for lazy people like me. Adding a larger picture made it looked like I wrote longer. Hoho.

herp derp.

2011-05-26T20:29:00.000+05:30

One more day

and then

I will be screaming like some mad fan girl for Scotty McCreery.

Yeah I am that late. But whatever.

for now off to read Community Medicine. pfffffft

hari ni jumat, sok sabtu, dan ahad datang selepas itu.

2011-05-20T20:35:00.000+05:30

Penat baca pasal cara buang tahi.
Tapi soalan pasal kebersihan tak masuk pun.

Ceh.

pakcik malan punya besday

2011-05-11T18:14:00.000+05:30

Salaam Alaik

Dearest Ayah,

I know I might be a tad late wishing you your Happy Birthday but none the less, Happy Birthday, old man! Old man with lots of experiences as you say. Now imagine me snapping my fingers next to you like how you did on my birthday and say, "Dah tuaaaaa dah ayah haaaaa.." I miss you you know.

Well, my present for you this year is a thousand of hugs and kisses making their way through the air from Gokulam to Bandar Seremban Selatan. Kot tetiba ayah terasa panas-panas tu ke ha dah sampai lah dia tu. HAHAHA. Ok very lame. Hadiah belakang cerita lah ok. More important is the thought that counts, right? =D

May Allah bless you and all good things happen to you. You are the best dad in the whole wide world.

I miss you daddy.
and I love you more.

Dance me, dance me around

Till my feet don't ever touch down

There's nothing better than being your girl

And if I am your princess then daddy

You are the king of the world

Nak merepek kejap.

2011-05-08T22:59:00.001+05:30

Salaam Alaik

So many things to read.

Palpitation
Palpitation
Palpitation

Nak balik ah camni.

Well when it comes to an exam season, there will be obviously tonnes of rantings on how lacking my prep time is, how many things to read, how so many portions yet to be covered, how so many facts to be memorized bla bla bla. That's normal.

and what makes it even more normal is it makes me missing home even MOREEEEEEEE.. but I guess I have to wait until July then.T.T

Mumsey dearie, Happy Mother's Day. I love you. . *bearhug*
Ain Rossa happy birthday girl. I love you too. Hohe. *"beruang"hug*

teringat pesan mimy, kalau malas maknanya ada setan dekat2 tu. so nak lawan setan kita kena jadi rajin. rasanya lah mimy ada cakap camtu. XD
\

hoping for everyday to be sundays

2011-05-01T10:16:00.001+05:30

Salaam Alaik

It is sad to see what Malaysia has come to.

If my local friends here ask about Malaysian current state of affairs, I will bury my head because it is too embarrassing. Luckily, I don't think they knew about other country's politics. When another side of the world, they are fighting for freedom with the price of their own lives, but here we are busy with taking oaths to publicize the sin being done. How can you shamelessly admit you are doing a sinful act, a very sinful one, to the whole wide world in the name of religion? The act alone tainted Islam herself.

I need to face books again.

Ta.

For the love.

2011-04-25T08:44:00.000+05:30

Worth listening to those who think love is everything.

Macam biasalah.

2011-04-24T00:27:00.001+05:30

Salaam Alaik

Gaaaaah *I kinda overusing gaah but whatever* it is so frustrating when you have no ideas to write. I know that I write mostly on stupid matters that no one bothers to read but writing always give me this some kind of satisfaction afterwards. Well people find a relief in so many ways and for me writing is a part of it. I don't know what the feeling is. It is like when you were back in school and your teacher told you to do a long essay. And the feeling you felt right after you finished it.. was nice. Back in school, I love writing essays though I was kinda "syok sendiri" with my essay in which, who don't?

What I am trying to say that it was just a nice feeling to finally complete something that you know how to start and get it going.

I think it's the beginning of raining season here. Every night it will rain but hey I am not complaining. I sleep better when it rains.

Here is a very lame attempt to be artsy-fartsy for once.

< eh put a very thoughtful caption here or on the picture itself. >

Ta.

Celcius or centigrade?

2011-04-10T18:54:00.001+05:30

Salaam Alaik

Ola people. I miss home. Going back in another 2-3 months maybe. Well whatever. Currently I am doing my Forensic Medicine posting and I have to say it's a really interesting subject to learn. Well it can be creepy when you have been growing listening to stories about dead people and stuff, you know how superstitious we can be. So my first time in the mortuary back home was a bit erm..how should i put this, eh? as most of us were hiding behind each other, not wanting to see the body. But all the doctor did back then was only external post mortem because that day a lady met with an accident and half of her head went missing. So the cause of death was pretty much obvious.

But the one I saw few days ago was brutal man. Suffice to say, if you want to further study in FM, make sure not to have a weak heart because you will be cutting up everything. Like a butcher I tell you especially the tongue part. The rest I can still bear with..but only the tongue part.

Still, we have to respect the dead as death is no laughing matter. It reminds us how short life can be. In matter of seconds it can end without any warning or signs. Be happy and content with life people!

*preach*

Toodles.

p/s: Lani dear, happy birthday again. Miss you lots. Hughughughughughughughughug

For the next 204 years, the scientific and thermometry communities worldwide referred to this scale as the centigrade scale. Temperatures on the centigrade scale were often reported simply as degrees or, when greater specificity was desired, as degrees centigrade. The symbol for temperature values on this scale was °C.Because the term centigrade was also the Spanish and French language name for a unit of angular measurement (1/10,000 of a right angle) and had a similar connotation in other languages, the term centesimal degree was used when very precise, unambiguous language was required by international standards bodies such as the Bureau international des poids et mesures (BIPM). The 9th CGPM (Conférence générale des poids et mesures) and the CIPM (Comité international des poids et mesures) formally adopted "degree Celsius" (symbol: °C) in 1948.^[7]^[8] Some people still use the old term. Wikipedia.

I hope if India wins the Cricket World Cup, we'll get a holiday.

2011-03-30T19:37:00.000+05:30

Sometimes it frustrates me when my only clever and sharp retorts will come to mind only after something happened or when I am alone afterwards. As I usually have to put up whatever things people want to say to me, shut up or smile or frown or whatever,and later regret for not saying hurtful things back to their faces.

But then again, that can be a blessing in disguise, right?

using the wrong side of mouth to chew.

2011-03-21T22:44:00.000+05:30

is irritating and painful.

INTERNETTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT

Y U NO GO FASTERRRRRRR??

Salaam Alaik

Internet is too slow right now for me to do anything. Oh yeah another sex tape is out apparently in Malaysia. From the opposition side....... Alaaa~ skandal skandal pun nanti orang lupa kena angkat jadi pemimpin balik. Of which I did not understand at all how people can accept and forget something that big easily. Macam rasuah-rasuah, kantoi keluar berita semua, malu-malu, turun jawatan bla bla ..tup tap tup tap ada orang elect jadi leader balik. And it was like nothing ever happened. He is still the top guy of which everyone needs to stand up if he enters a room. Like that loh. I mean, you know, if we want to choose a leader, there are so many criteria to be fulfilled, and what not. Like if you want to hire someone, you most definitely will not hire one with criminal records, will you? We are one very forgiving nation, is it?

Politikus aside.

I am sleepy. Maybe my friend is right. Even a placebo is enough for me to feel drowsy and sleepy.

“Christmas was coming. One morning in mid-December, Hogwarts woke to find itself covered in several feet of snow. The lake froze solid and the Weasley twins were punished for bewitching several snowballs so that they followed Quirrell around, bouncing off the back of his turban.” - SS/PS, CH. 12

Fred and George threw snowballs at Voldemort. LOLOLOLOLOL.If you don't laugh I hate you.XD

Almost 2.

2011-03-17T01:53:00.002+05:30

8.9 Earthquake in Japan

Then tsunami hit Japan

Nuclear plants are leaking

Radiations are everywhere

Rosmah made a bad comment

People are angry

Libyans are still fighting

Gaddafi is still in power
Bahrain is protesting

Egypt is in post revolution

Too many things happened already for 2011. Is there something bigger coming our way like He promised?

Takutnya.

Yati I hereby named the tedibear as Timah. Happy?

2011-03-14T23:46:00.002+05:30

Salaam Alaik

So I just came back from Chennai along with 31 other Malaysians. I believe our butts are kematu-ed enough for the 1day plus journey going to Chennai and coming back to Mysore. I did not know which way the drivers took us. Sleeping was scarce whilst on the bus going to Chennai as my seat was in the last row. When there was a bump on the road, macam terbang-terbanglah manusia di dalam bas tersebut. And on Monday, we went to school "happily".

I am just happy being able to go to Chennai. Got to meet up some friends, eating Malaysian food, expenses all paid not by me like a free holiday like that. Met some prominent Malaysian leaders which was cool actually. I hope there will be more session like this but I cannot help feeling like it was a bit staged .... you know..So yeah.. but we enjoyed it never the less.

Anyhow it was an experience one can never forget. Chennai was freaking hot. Once you stepped outside under the sun, your sweat glands will be active instantaneously.

I am so happy to know that Chong Wei beat Lin Dan! My internet connection was so slow I could not even live-stream. It was so pathetic as I have to see the game on Youtube 24hours later. I hope I can at least watch one match between them LIVE for sure. It was crazy fun seeing Malaysians sorak-sorak together.

My confession today is I was actually excited meeting Samy Vellu.=P

Yelah dah tua kan.

2011-03-04T23:21:00.000+05:30

Salaam Alaik

Whatever I have been writing on, they are piling up to be drafts only. The guts to finish and publish them are gone. gone. gone.

*sigh*

I miss home terribly.

Dik Wa,ingat selalu yang kita lakukan diwaktu-waktu begini.Kita pandang bintang sederet tiga di waktu malam , lepas itu kita cari lagi satu bintang didepan bintang tiga itu dan kita namakan bintang itu bintang kita. Nampak tak bintang tuh di Mysore. Ayah katakan dulu kalau rindu pada ayah dan keluarga pandanglah bintang itu. Sambil memandang bintang ayah petik jari ditelinga. Baru sahaja tahun sebelum tuh ayah petik jari ditelinga Dik Wa. Begitulah dibuat setiap tahun. Sila buat sendiri kali ini. Betapa pantas masa berlalu. Modal kehidupan semakin berkurang. Jangan dipersiakan masa ini. Gunakan modal amanah tuhan ini sebaik mungkin.

- Ayah yang kalau chat memang skema tahap penulisannya tapi masih disayangi.

how time flies by… it seems just yesterday that you were a baby in my arms…n today it feels so wonderful to see you growing up into a beautiful girl ... you hv always made us proud .. may Allah bless you with a great, successful and happy life ahead ... happy birthday darling .. l love you !

-Ibu yang sangat tak skema walaubagaimanapun tetap disayangi.

Nangis T.T

To friends and families, who have given me their wishes, prayers and presents, I thank you with all my heart.

Everyone makes mistakes.

2011-02-27T23:04:00.000+05:30

Salaam Alaik

We always jump into conclusion. With no background searching, with no personal experience, with no knowledge of a particular subject, we make our own assumption regardless whether it will hurt us or not. That is just us. A mere human being. Even though there is a part of us wanting to be positive, there will always be a fragment that oppose. It will grow and eat us up to the point that we can lose our confidence to a person, a system or anything.

The beautiful thing about religion is we have something to turn ourselves to when we are down and hopeless. When we have no insight of what will be happening in the near future, we pray just for the best thing to happen. If the outcome not as what we want it to be, there's a saying " when God closes a door, He opens a window." And the statement is not a total BS you know.

Writing from experience.

The assumption sometimes will lead to hurtful things that we cannot imagine. Yes, it's a relief to be able to say "sorry" but yet the scar is still there. I hope all are forgiven and if possible, not to be remembered at all.

Moral of the story ; Listen to both sides of a story before you jump into conclusion.

Happy Mondays everyone!

The Domino Effect.

2011-02-23T18:37:00.002+05:30

Salaam Alaik

Who said women are oppressed and cannot express their views in Islam?

Seriously why people are worried over the rise of Islamic extremism when an Islamic country is fighting over their own freedom? How extreme is extreme? People are killed by their own government on the streets. It is their right to be liberated after suffering oppression for a very long time.

While most of us including me is currently sitting in front of the laptop watching movies and TV series, another whole lot of youngsters on the other side of the world are being a part of a history in the making. Sometimes, I feel ashamed of myself for my lacking of interest to carry the responsibility trusted on me but instead busy thinking of my own comfort and happiness.

Terhutang budi. Kena bayar balik 10 tahun. Tskkkkk...

2011-02-20T00:25:00.002+05:30

Salaam Alaik

Hi. As most of you probably know, I am a student sponsored by the people of my country to study abroad and it is my duty or responsibility to bring back a scroll clarifying my worth of 5 and a half years of learning. I am thankful for being the chosen one to be sent here, to India. Though what I feel at the deepest part of my heart may not justify what I said most of the times, but really, I am thankful for being given this chance to study in a country whereby most of us if given a choice, will surely decline.

It's the truth. When I talked to my juniors or friends welcoming them to study in India, they will mostly say NO THANK YOU. I can understand why. Even my thoughts were?are? like that too. Hey I had a senior too before. When she said she was leaving for India, my immediate reaction was "eeeee.. India. tak bestnya." Padan muka diri sendiri I guess. I don't know what happen to her though. I did not keep in touch apparently after that. Bad junior am I?

Putting that aside,

what I am going to talk here is about how we spend our money. Or rather how we broadcast our usage of money. The money given to us by the people with hope that we use it wisely and in which will benefit us and the country we are serving. I am feeling slightly annoyed with those who parade their lavishness to the world if the money are not earned by their own hard work. Studying is not working. Most people pay tuition money to study and not having money being deposited into their accounts every month or once in 3 months. I think, it is enough for us or our family only to know what we are spending on with the money trusted on us than telling everybody else. I know I am not the right person to tell you this but we know, we are spending some of the $$$ for our own personal gain. Kan?

The only thing is do not tell every living soul, especially those who are sponsoring you, those who do not have the chance as you have i.e to get paid while studying and also those who pay their taxes to support you, that you are spending it over a vacation, over a hobby, over an entertainment, or over whatever. Technically, the money once being given to you, are yours but at the very least have some respect to those who work hard for it.

Because I tell you why, these people do not like to see or know what you have been doing with the money other than for a good cause that is for learning purpose because once they knew, they will feel like they were being cheated on. By you. By us generally. As paying tax is compulsory, these people will feel that their money are being wasted. on us. The good for nothing enjoying life with other people hard work . Yeah well maybe studying is far from really enjoying your life but still... you get the drift, don't you?

Dan, apa jadi kalau orang tak redha dengan duit yang kita guna untuk makan, pakai etc? Na'uzubillahiminzalik.

Oh duit dah masuk. Boleh shoppinggggggggggggggggggg..Yey.
Oh duit dah masuk. Boleh beli itu dan iniiiii...Yey
Oh duit dah masuk. Boleh pergi situ dan siniiii...Yey.

These are entirely wrong but we are already an adult. I believe we know what to do and what not to do.My 2 cents over the topic. I hope none get offended. Heheh. This is a reminder for myself too, not to do silly things that I will regret later. Because one day, I will be paying taxes. And one day, I will be paying for the future kids' education. And you got that right I will be pissed off if I know they are using it to belanja girlfren/bofren pergi candle light dinner. Lolz.

Now now I need to study more. My Forensic and Microb are down the drain. Sobs.

Our weapon was our dreams and tomorrow is clear in front of us.

Sometimes I need to remind myself my purpose of being here. Belajar.Belajar. Belajar. Not academic wise only. But of life.

Of school again.

2011-02-12T15:22:00.001+05:30

Salaam Alaik

The new semester is tiring. We started class at 8am in the morning and finished at 5pm everyday. On Saturday however, they ended at 3pm. I just came back from the college after the class, that was supposed to be held today at 2pm, was cancelled. It was a waste of my precious time to be away from college when I could actually go back at 12pm. *sigh*

Well, I hope nothing but for the best and I wish to see a video of my Dad playing DDR pretty please. thank you.

The best way to appreciate your job is to imagine yourself without one.

Nak buat apa eh kot tak belajar sekarang?

Bring them somewhere safe please.

2011-01-31T07:23:00.000+05:30

Salaam Alaik

I am very worried sick right now. I want to call Ayu, Huda, Husna, Maryam, Sakinah and all to know how are things going on there but I let it pass thinking that their battery life should be saved for family who really need to know about them real bad . It was a relief hearing from them the other day but things are getting bad to worse from what I read in Facebook and internet. I hate the way the government, handling this situation. Should be there are news in Malaysia talking about the current situation in Egypt. How our student hanging on there? With the electric being cut off and food stock is getting low? What are the plans? Why do you want to wait code red to appear then take action? They are our kids, our friends. Parents are worried about their children. They need to know. Not all have the advantage of calling, surfing the internet like some of us do. But instead,as I am watching the TV right now THEY ARE TALKING ABOUT MISS UNIVERSE MALAYSIA FOR GOODNESS SAKE!

Geramnyaaaaaa!

All my friends hang in there. Our prayers are always with you.

Average is the new exceptional!

2011-01-29T14:42:00.001+05:30

Salaam Alaik

Well I couldn't help feeling I am a part of this too.HAHAHA.

Who's wimme??

p/s: kawan-kawan kat mesir jaga diri. May Allah be with you.

Makcik Elham.

2011-01-26T19:28:00.003+05:30

Dear Faridatul Elham,

I don't want to wish you over the Facebook. You know that I don't do FB that much, do you? So here I am wishing you joy and happiness in my blog. My blog is mine and the whole wide world can see it as I am not keeping it private as long as you have the internet connection. Unlike my Facebook.

I am blabbering.

Anyhoooooooooooooooo,

Happy 22nd Birthday. May Allah grants you all the happiness in the world and hereafter. I am glad to know you and prolly glad I am stuck in India with you too. So as a good friend, you need to listen and read whatever I am rambling about from this point onwards. Thank you very much.

So, here's a cliche song for you.

Goodnight.

vomiting castor oil, potassium permanganate et cetera.

2011-01-23T22:17:00.000+05:30

Salaam Alaik

I know I should not be doing this or wasting my time as tomorrow is my practical exam. It is hard to concentrate with your laptop switched on 24 hours in front of you. Then again, I cannot shut it off as it is just the same, I will switch it on to listen to something, or browse and read other interesting stuff than remembering steps and actions of Pharma pracs,. Studying alone in your own room silently can be proven disastrous. Yeah well, at least for me.

You know what I want to do one fine day?

I like to write for my 30 or 40 year old self and bury it in time capsule or something. Just saying what I feel right now, of what I am hoping to achieve by the time I reach that age. But at the same time I am afraid of what the future holds. What if what I dream does not go the way it should be?or what I hope it to be?

Anyway,

I really hope JSS can be nice for once. Providing us few days of holidays at least after exam or not forcing us to go to classes during exam week. *what is this eh eh eh eh what is this, shrieks the vice-principal..blergh*

Which professional college tells you to go classes as usual in the morning and go to exam in the evening?

Apparently, JSS does!

well my one very optimist friend said, JSS wants you to be a good doctor.

Yeah yeah. I get that often from my father okay. toodles all.

I am not missing summer but it is cold here.

2011-01-15T23:15:00.002+05:30

Salaam Alaik,

The nearer you are to the exam day. The more lazy ass you become.

Forgive me as I am on my break.

Something to ponder though. Why Malaysia keeps on sending students to study English oversea if they are not fully utilizing the chance? You know, by only mingling with their own group of friends namely the Malaysians. After coming back from the countries they were being sent to, at least what we expect is their level of English will be above some par to teach children back home but sometimes, more embarrassing thing happen like when the kids being thought are much more fluent than the teacher. Don't you feel that it is just like a waste of taxpayers' money?

My friend is doing English major in Malaysia herself and I bet her English is much better than some who went to Australia, UK etc. I am not saying all. Some groups of people who rather feel comfortable in their own cocoon.

What I am trying to say is seize the chance you have.It is not everyday you get the chance to study away from home. Away from your comfort zone. Mingle around. Get to know the people. Converse. After all you are the one who is going to teach the future generations.

Well, US will be sending their volunteers to teach us English because apparently, we have shortage of English teachers.

So, I hope I am not offending anyone. I am merely stating my opinion. Heh.

Wish me luck.

Goodbye.

hey sexay lady.

2011-01-07T23:08:00.001+05:30

Salaam Alaik

I don't know.. this might the longest conversation I ever had with my Mum and sisters over YM ,rambling on non stop without any particular topic. It's Mummy's birthday anyway.

yep,she's that young.

or is the black and white photo a dead give-away?

Happy Birthday Ibu

May joy be with you

May Allah blesses you

May world be good to you

May everyday becomes easier for you

There will never be enough thank yous

There will never be enough words to describe you

As nothing can be compared to you

And what you've done for us too.

All I can say is I love you

And all I can wish for is that

Now I am hugging you

Just to say Happy Birthday Ibu.

Hugs and kisses from me,

Your little girl always.

ok now, tears of joy please.

I'm gay and I'm OK

2011-01-06T23:04:00.001+05:30

Salaam Alaik

GAY AS IN HAPPY OK?

I am hungry again. I did my own calculations on how long I can stay without food. I think weather influences it very much. Mysore is cold. For now, it is every 6 hours and my stomach will rumble for food. It's pathetic I'm telling you. I don't each much really . Trust me. I don't. People saw me like I am eating too much occasionally. Duh... it's an occasion. Of course you need to eat like you never eat before or as the phrase goes eat like a pig , because people will serve nice food at that time. In order for me, to show my appreciation of their hard work in preparing the food, we must eat plenty.

Stupid YM not letting me signing in.

Anyhow, congratulations to my sister. Her result finally came out. You are officially the first EE engineer in Ramalan's family which reminded me I will never be the first doctor in the family. Sheesh. Maybe I should join politics someday. Or be a teacher. Or an ambassador. Or a lawyer. Just to have something like "the first ............... in the family"

With her boyfriend, the lamb shearing guy.

Well, bravaaaaah to her.. and her graduation will be on this coming July. Sila jangan lupa masukkan nama I dalam bajet ke Ostolia ye bapak yang comel. Kalau tiada aral melintang I mahu ikut bersama. Kalau tak, takpe. Masukkan I dalam list bercuti ke tempat lain. I sanggup tunggu dan congak-congak hari. If you know what I mean. Heeeee~

Internal exam is coming again.

You can't base your life on other people's expectation

- Pacik Stevie Wonder.

So I shouldn't study?eh?eh?eh?

Tata all.

I haven't blogged since last year.woh woh.

2011-01-04T19:23:00.002+05:30

Meh...
That is lame.

Salaam Alaik

So, many of my cousins are getting married. One was already married on the first Jan. One was engaged also on the first Jan. One from my Mum's side and another is from my Dad's. And both are girls. I heard rumours and also true stories about my many other cousins are getting married. From both sides. What? Is it ~~mating~~ wedding season right now?

And I am the only one missing all the nasik minyaks and ayam tomato/sambal/rendang while burying myself deeeeeeeep under piles of books, literally.*sigh*

Riben-riben di kepala tak ada nampaknya.

Talked to Dad just now, about Haziq's first day at school. Nothing seems to be lost yet. So that must be a good news. I miss seeing him off to school, listening to Mum's "CEPATLAH MAKAN ADIK. MAKCIK SYIDAH DAH TUNGGU"

Haziq is in Standard 4.
Haziq is in Tahap 2.
Haziq is a big boy now.

Man, how time flies.

p/s: enros, dah dapat dah kan?

10years ago, I thought I will be tall enough to reach the uppermost part of the blackboard.

2010-12-31T17:46:00.001+05:30

Salaam Alaik

For 2010

1. I never had an awful lot of homesickness before. Yelah kot kat SMAP, tetiap minggu ibu datang jemput sanggup tunggu habis tazkirah jumaat bondong2 bawak baju kotor, ibu buat masak-masak pastu makan kat pondok depan asrama tu. Takpun ibu seludup bawak balik. Kat KTT, kot rindu rumah, call ayah/ibu, nanti petang sikit ayah balik dari kerja ayah jemput terus bawak balik takpun pergi makan kat Nilai ,borak-borak sampai maghrib.. Ni kat Hindia. Tak boleh nak balik selalu. Walaupun dah selalu balik, tapi tak sama. Like now, I want to go home again although it is barely a week after I came back from Malaysia. Sobs.

2. I celebrated 2010 here yo but at that time I was doing my countdown to go back.

3. I sat for this one of a kind exam for 5 consecutive days. By the end of the 5th day, directly after finishing the last theory paper, I went Skype-ing with my friends and they said my face was awful.

4. Yeah, not to forget the blunder I made for the exam. Still a plausible act for I managed to pass though. Syukuuuuur Alhamdulillah.

5. I was mental almost throughout the year 'cause I have too many aggravating factors. Alasan.

6. Started UO with Ayu and Mimy. I miss Mimy's way of telling stories and Ayu's way of trying to get us to talk? Lol.

7. Went here and there. Exploring India but only in the south. Never cease to amaze me.

8. Dunno how many chocs I bought and ate this year. Too many. Way too many but surprisingly I am not gaining any weight. All the curry and chillies I ate apparently increased my metabolism rate, maybe.

9. Oh yeah, I moved into a new house. My room is complete now with the furnitures and all but still I malas nak ambil gambar show off pada dunia.. I am lazy like that.

10. What else eh? Is my life was so uneventful this year? T.T

11. Gained many new friends, lost none I hope. My facebook is kinda dormant lately.. My tumblr kinda active lately. Being anon is way too awesome. My sister please do unfollow me. My freedom of expression is suppressed with you around. Miahahahhahahaha.

12. Watched one Hindi movie only. but watched too many series.

13. Lost Nohara but I have Misae now.

Dahla ok. too many things happened really. it is never uneventful a life is. everyday there is something significant in your life. it is just whether you realized or not, the events that make you the way you are NOW.

Alhamdulillah and I am welcoming 2011 and 1432H with an open mind and heart.

2010-12-29T19:28:00.003+05:30

allow me to be in semangat kenegaraan for a while. No BTN can do this. XD

TAKE THAT INDONESIANS TAKE THAT!!

MIAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA

pueh ati den.

ok bye nak dengar review.

Dreading to go back like VERY. Hiaarghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

2010-12-24T16:45:00.001+05:30

XD

2010-12-08T21:34:00.000+05:30

Salaam Alaik

You know,

if i can put up a big grin with hand clasping together over here, I will most probably do it but

wait i'll go and try to google one, fit for what I am feeling now.

Ha! i think my face right now will be more or less like Hobbes. HAHAHAH

Okie dokie, goodbye.

Salaam Maal Hijrah to all. May Allah bless us in every single thing that we do. May we be a better servant. May we be more grateful. May we be the best yet the humblest being He created.

One of the days.

2010-12-04T22:06:00.000+05:30

Kacak budak2 hansons ni. tapi sadly semua dah kahwin.

Maybe I could take take a look at myself lately.

Seriously, do doctors greet patients with Hello, good morning..?

2010-12-02T21:50:00.004+05:30

Salaam Alaik

I was posted to a new department this week from OBG to General Medicine. Luckily ( I hope ), I was posted into 4th Unit in which I heard good stories of no screaming PGs or evil unit head but, you'll never know as it has only been 2 days. So far I can say, everything's good.

Today was OPD day. There will be like many sick patients coming into the department to be diagnosed and get admitted into wards. Nothing unusual happened. But one thing that really caught my attention was when one police officer came in. He was coming along with two elderly people who I guessed were his parents. His mother was being checked exclusively by the head unit, pushing behind all those that came in before her. Well that was nothing maybe but what amazed me was the police officer got to sit at the table together with the doctors. Mind you, this is a very crowded place.

Those who accompanied the patients to see the doctor will never get to sit because I repeat, it's a very crowded room. But this guy, with his uniform, Daewoo walkie-talkie and one big confident moustache sat nonchalantly next to one of the PGs and begin talking to the unit head. The next thing that made me shaking my head silently was he yelled to another patient for trying to see the doctor before his father did. It was unsettling because his father was hiding far behind where no one could see him and others were queuing for a long time. Maybe that atuk penat kot. His BP was 190/110mmHg by the way. Tapi tak perlu jerit-jerit. Kecut perut pakcik diabetic sejak umur 13 tahun, yang sekarang heading to renal failure tu tadi. Kesian dia.

The power of uniform, ey?

It reminded me with one news in Malaysia. There was this boy who wrote a letter to the camp where he was being assigned to for the NS/PLKN stating that he was the foster child of one of the sultan. The hilarious part was, the boy was welcomed extravagantly by the camp administrator and all. When later they found out the truth, it was like a huuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuge embarrassment and tried to blame the boy etc etc. Dah malu nak pinpoint kat orang lain. SOY lah! SOY!

What I am trying to say is, double standard ada di mana-mana.

Bangalore has a city centaur yo.

Ta.

Am I a racist?

2010-11-28T13:28:00.021+05:30

Salaam Alaik

It has been ages since I watched Hindi movies. I used to like them before because my sister watched Hindi movies like A LOT. Then in KTT, my tangga mates LOVE Hindi movies big time. One can even recognize all the actors and actresses. I pretty much watched the latest movies and listening to the songs at that time because of them. Heheh..

But after a few months here rebelling and all, I have come up to the level where I hate their movies and couldn't even bear to hear the language spoken ( there is this one girl who keep on talking to me in Hindi. I was doing my "yeah i can totally understand u" face and she was like oh, I forgot you don't understand Hindi.*big grin here* Duh..) or to watch the dance as the people here love to dance a lot. Yep, that much of hatred. So here I am, after a year and a half, the hatred is still there but only in a small amount but can only be triggered and multiplied at times, having finally made up my mind to watch one of the famous movie of the year 2009 or is it 2010? , the 3 Idiots.

Aamir Khan looked young and pretty much cute in the movie and he was smooching with Kareena. I didn't hear any sound about it because believe me, for Hindi movies ,sexy : yes but kissing part never took place. Well prolly it's not classified as kissing since what Kareena did was forcefully smacking Aamir Khan's lips. I thought people here are sensitive about that in the movies/real life/whatever because if I am not mistaken, when Richard Gere kissed Shilpa Shetty on the cheek, the ruckus they made was unbelievable saying he was not respecting their culture and all.

Oh well.

Putting that aside, the movie was funny though and my detest for Hindi is no more now or well, very little at least. I will be looking for other Hindi movies after this. Hahah. I thought of rambling about their education system, how the students and teachers are like but I am too lazy. Later when I have the power to ramble on, I will do this.

p/s: My voice sounds manly due to the coughing. *sigh*

aha.rabu cuti lagi.

2010-11-24T22:32:00.000+05:30

Salaam Alaik

Hi.

Actually there is nothing to write but I am just like getting to know tumblr for now. Sure it is cool . Very cool. They say it's microblogging. I don't know how to explain. Just go and find out yourselves. Of course it is pointless when you already have a blog, come to think of it but you know somehow we need to be pointless. Haha.

I am blabbering.

Anyhooooooo,

Mysore is just the same boring old Mysore with bits of gossips thrown in here and there. It is boring. Totally boring. It's the apex of boringness you can never know. I need to get out of this place as soon as I can as it is killing me from the inside.

Drama queen very much.

2 weeks more.
2 weeks.

And I am very jealous of you lot vacationing here and there back home. Good food and a good place. What more could you possibly ask for?

Is there any Thursday blues? 'cause I am having one right now.

2010-11-17T22:58:00.000+05:30

Salaam Alaik

Happy Eid everyone!

I woke up late this morning. The alarm snoozed alright but I went to sleep like I always did. Here's the thing actually, I miss home. Last night I listened to the takbir and it made me saaad... hormon ka? I was browsing Dad's photo album over the FB. Yeps you got that right. My father has a Facebook account. So is my mother but Dad doesn't use it much as Mum. Hehe. Actually come to think of it, Facebook used to have mostly old people only in it. I mean not old.. old.. but you know those in working circles, university students and all. older generation maybe? The number of friends will not exceed few hundreds I believe but lo and behold, now we can see there are like 4k+ friends for some veryyyyy feyyymesss pipel or those who like to make friends?

But my 9 year old brother is having a Facebook account too and not to forget his little friends. Kids these days. Sheesh.. Pergi main sep tiang / baling selipar sudah. Nak main fesbuk..Sheesh..

Anyway, what am I talking about?

Oh yeah, I miss home.

I saw Dad wrote the caption, Ini Masao for his friend's photo. Come on Dad. That is an inside joke. What if Masao gets to know about that eh? Habislah nickname tu kita tak boleh guna ok? But sure it cracked me up when I read it.

Hrithik Roshan ada nyanyi-nyanyi ke?

Jom tengok HP7 jommmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm!!!

p/s: My eid this year is much much much better than the last. الحمد لله .Thanks to Malaysians in Mysore and that is 37 of them, I think, excluding me. I had a proper celebration minus the qurban though and i am stuffed with yummy food , also with a nice weather to snuggle up in bed later.

deswaitumoroaiemverilezitugotuklasbutkenotaimasgo.

ta.

Lari untuk selamat.

2010-11-15T22:14:00.000+05:30

Salaam Alaik

Rasa sangat berdosa.
Yeah,if you know what I am talking about.XD

Well,

SELAMAT HARI RAYA.

Malam ni kena doa banyak-banyak sebab orang wukuf kat Arafah.

Nah pergi baca.

down memory lane.

2010-11-10T23:15:00.000+05:30

Salaam Alaik

As I was browsing the net, I miraculously found this. Teehee..

Man.. How lame the vids back then. I couldn't imagine if I was in the video and watching it 10 years later. Malu seyh. I was really laughing my head off because the last time I heard this song was during my KTT times. My friend did have this song on her phone and played it out loud during exam times if I am not mistaken. And the part when the guy was reciting poem to this Fiona girl was really funny. Haih.. I wish I can turn back time during those days. KTT was really small but the people in it really brighten up the place. I miss my KTT friends really.

kredit dah capai negatif.

2010-11-09T16:24:00.002+05:30

Salaam Alaik

I only realized just now that I said the HOD kept on pushing us but actually it is not the HOD. This person I was talking about actually is my unit head. He's in charge of the unit and pretty awesome at that too. He was the HOD for a couple of years but if one post is being held too long by someone, it will do no good. You can see the state of Malaysia now. Drama y'all. Barulah syok kau ada rival-rival. Semua orang nak buat kerja sungguh-sungguh. Layan orang bawahan dengan baik. Kasik itu ini nak menangkan hati orang bawahan. If there's no opposition team, the world will be dull, I tell you. Same like if you have a friend that nod and yes-sing to every word that you said. Kan kan? Just say yes will ya? HAHA.

I was being asked earlier today whether Babi or Syaitan is much worse?

Due to my lacking of reactivity? or reaction? in giving proper answer, and I wonder how did I answer all those POIs before.., I choose Syaitan to be the worst though I told my friend it is just the same.

You see, Babi is just a dirty animal. Babi sounds so not nice but a pig sounds otherwise. When you hear someone is calling names of other people, Babi will sound so horrendous and not pretty at all. The emotion of saying pig and babi is different too. Try, you pig! is nothing more than just calling someone who ate like a pig. At least that is what I imagined all this while.

He's a pig. Babilah dia. Contoh ok. Haha rasa macam zaman sekolah rendah. I din know why we were so allergic to the word to the point if we want to say it, "contohlah kan.." must be inserted. What I want to say is, Babi or pig is just an animal. A dirty one. Maybe that is why people will be offended if you are comparing him to an animal.

Erm.. I am not encouraging anyone to "membabikan" those who made you angry but it is just too funny. Piglet is cute by the way. My parents don't like me cursing others. I am a good daughter so I obey them. HAHAHAHAHA.shadap. What I am doing now,my friends.. is what we call angkat bakul sendiri.

Syaitan on the other hand was and still a pure evil. Who can challenge that,eh?

A girl in her outfit to the shopping mall. Why Mummy never dressed me like this before?

I learnt a new word. Daghak? Any Kelantanese to clarify this?

p/s: why so serious?

Naik motor pukul 5 pagi kat Mysore was awsome.

2010-11-01T18:14:00.002+05:30

Salaam Alaik

Finally after a month being posted to OBG department, I was able to see babies being delivered with my own two eyes. I know people would be thinking , I should be able to see babies being delivered anytime I want as 29 babies are being born each minute in India. I was just out of luck and with the HOD kept on pushing us, I managed to squeeze some luck finally. It was bugging me really seeing other units happily left the hospital but our unit had to bust our ass off and still being threatened to be marked absent. Our "physical" attendances apparently are not enough and so were the night postings. You need to work extra hard, so he said.

There is this warm fuzzy feeling inside when seeing this for the first time and watching the baby right after being born, opening up his big eyes madly gawking at everything made all of us went, "Awwwwwwwwwwwwww.." Many people said newborn babies looked like wrinkled monkeys but seriously, are you people out of your mind? No babies are ugly. Babies are naturally cute and have nothing similar to monkey at all but the cries might be slightly funny and annoying too.

I went for night posting and didn't sleep the whole night. But all worth it tho. =)

A baby girl. I hope the world treats you kind and you treat others the same too.

Sometimes, I think I talk too much. Waaaay too much. It is a sudden realization. And puking on the bus with no plastic in hands proved to be hideous and one smelly occasion. I am sorry,Atul. I hope it did not ruin your journey afterwards. Must keep in mind to travel with a plastic bag, just in case. A pair of surgical gloves is handy too. Anything to contain your vomit. Haha.

But anyway, came across this page. Penat gelak-gelak yawww. And I think I am becoming more cynical over the days but one hopeful cynic, I hope.

Isnin biru-biru..ke isnin yang kebiruan?

2010-10-24T21:36:00.002+05:30

Monday blues. Make sense?

Salaam Alaik

and greetings humans.

What make us hooked to Facebook, Blog, Twitter, Tumblr or any online social websites there are?

1. You are lying if you say you are not a busy body yet you surfed the internet and looked into others' profile. You are just like me who like to know what happen to others. Whether they are getting fatter or slimmer or hotter or sexier or more soleh/solehah. In short, you are a busy body. You are. Tak payah geleng kepala or pointing fingers or make faces because admit it. YOU ARE!

2. You can express yourself in any way that you want when no body else really cares. Say, in the form of words or your photography skills. Like in saying whatever you like, or taking pictures and post it up in whatever poses you want. Which also can help with your self-esteem when one compliments you.

3. You are an attention seeker. Come on. Admit it. No harm in that. So what if we are? Since small we do need attention from our parents, don't we? There are five stages of grief and most of you, not me, is in the first stage. That is denial. I am on the fifth i.e acceptance. What are we grieving for exactly? The sad human race who have no life other than surfing the net. Again, I am accepting the fact that I am sad too.

4. You like sharing which is a pretty good thing. Sharing is caring, eh? If not, what is with the videos and notes and lyrics and quotes being posted? I am being general not only focusing on Facebook or Blog. Because I like to share. Saw the HP trailer already? It was awesome, wasn't it?

5. Or maybe all these things are our creative outlet? Writing.. Photography.. Music.. Hmm?

Pfft.. I have no life. I need to get out and do some shopping. My orange juice is out of stock. Aih.. can't wait till December but am really dreading January. And I also in need of new story books. Mysore has limited number of story books. Must go to Bangalore to purchase lots and lots of new ones.

Sorry for the pointless babbling. And if you read till the end though it is short and that is very lazy of you if you don't, you deserve a pat on the back. Syabbas mera beti!Syabbas!

Jumaat is the best day of all days. Period.

2010-10-22T02:28:00.004+05:30

Salaam Alaik

To be honest, I never really like people putting up songs on their blog. It almost kill the mood instantly to read their posts. That is why I am not putting any on my blog. It clashes with my principle.*yeah, I sense the poyoness too* But I was once like that because I think I want people to hear what I was listening at that time, in which later I found out, nobody cares. The same with my writings but then who cares right? We can do anything that we are pleased to do which is why I am writing this piece of junk and wondering when will I be able to write seriously for my intellectual satisfaction. Heh. Prolly light years away.

I like to read when it is all quiet. But when academic comes to mind, I prefer music or anything that sounds good to my ears on the background. Not that loud but you pretty much know what is playing at least. Or I will just let a movie play by itself while I am doing my work. I need companion badly while I am studying. Or I will go mad.

Anyway,

Indians sure party really hard. I don’t know Indians in other places but Indians in Mysore sure do like loud music. It amazes me how they can stand the loudness of their music. I almost went deaf yesterday due to their shrieking,whistling and of course much too loud music. I am the kind of person who almost cannot tolerate loud music.. Almost but seriously it was too much. Even a friend of mine who used to loudness complained about it. So, it wasn't just me.

My head was buzzing last night after the function. Too many people dancing on the stage too and it gets boring when you see the same thing on repetition. You know, menari, menyanyi, menari, menyanyi, pastu menari balik. pastu fashion show. It was a jaw dropping scene to see the PGs and doctors with tight faces all day long suddenly dancing or was it jumping? wildly at the middle of the auditorium. They went banana all right.

I just watched Unthinkable. I think it was a bit dry. Again, a bit about terrorism and Islam. You guys got nothing else but Islam and terrorism? But anyway, the story was basically on how far you’ll go and torture to get info from a terrorist or so it seems. It was brutish. More like Saw movies, not gory as much but you will cringe few times.

Today is holiday again. I will have a slumber party all day on my bed. Awesomeness.

Till then,

Ta.

p/s: I am sorry but I have to add this.

Look away I'm hideous

XD XD XD guling-guling lagi.

Macam rindu rumahlah kan..

2010-10-19T23:39:00.001+05:30

Salaam Alaik

Now now the internet is so freaking slow that it annoys me so much. ( I agree...ni Fareed). -->it was written few days back and I am too nice to let this makcik "enterframe" anyway.

Gaaaah...

Today was my bad hair day. I mean literally. I am just too tired to think and my lids will be closed at any moment now but I have a record to do. And to tepuk2 following the synchrony also, I am out of it. People are clapping upwards, me doing it the wrong way.People clapped but i didn't. I clapped but they didn't. I am too messed up now.Poor kid sitting next to me who was apparently trying to follow my steps. HAHA..I am bad at performing anyway.

I had been fighting really hard to keep my eyes open during class since this morning. And whatever drugs we were learning, I think, 0.001% went into my head but I diligently wrote down whatever the teacher was saying.It was Pharmac class by the way.

And then there was posting. The OBG posting. The posting that I "like" the most. Seriously I do.

I mean, I don't mind people teaching me and all because that is what my purpose of coming here. To learn as much as I can. But as you see, my mind has already wandering to have lunch and paying the least attention to whatever you are saying. It is nice to have someone teaching you, showing you the methods etc but can you do it when early in the morning when my level of enthusiasm is high. Not when it is near the time to go back and feed my stomach? It is a plain torture. And you saw us glancing at the watch every now and then. But hey,you said, you have another bus to catch isn't it? *sigh*. It was hot this afternoon and my head was throbbing like mad. I skipped lunch to get some sleep. Because later I had my Pharmac practicals at which I carelessly spilled the mixture over my friend's book. The teachers asked me question but I didn't know what I was babbling. At least, I tried. For whatever I was saying, I don't think they'd understand because I was a lil bit confused my self at that time. hoho.

Who am I to complain anyway?

And tomorrow, I hope nothing comes my way and now I am just earnestly hoping to have a good night sleep.

Oh haven't I tell you yet? We will be having College Day tomorrow and we Malaysians just knew we had a slot for us to perform. Yeah, thank you very much.

closure.

2010-10-14T23:09:00.000+05:30

Humans are annoying freaks
so are you and you.

and yes, me too.

so, good night.

it is so fluffehhhh!!

2010-10-07T01:26:00.002+05:30

Salaam Alaik

Thursday is holiday again. I am kinda liking this term. The more holidays there are, the better! So keep 'em coming! Waking up early in the morn is a pure torture. And it adds the torture even more when you see your house mate on the mattress just outside your door, snuggling comfortably. One word. Jelesi. I have changed my posting this week from Surgery to OBG. Weird I know. Nobody back home called it OBG. My sister surely can laugh her head off if she heard me talking "it's OBG here" because for sure she'll be asking "what is that? Korang memang kelakar. Budak grad india memang asek kena gelak.term korang tak kena langsung" and on and on.

I had seen ultrasound for the first time in real life and it is an exciting moment to watch one little creature inside moving its jaws up and down. Cute little things. I couldn't help smiling but trying to keep the straight face all the same. The mothers that I saw in the outpatient department were young. Even younger than me and having their first baby already but no offence, they looked much older than I am. Is it the height? No I doubt that.

So here's a feast for the eyes. If you wanna call it a feast, seeing the wonderful things in India.

You have seen ponies and cows. Here's something extra. Gajah Ok? GAJAH ON THE ROAD!

Christmas in September. Only in JSS. *angkat-angkat kening*

Monyet besar-besar banyak berpeleseran di muka bumi JSS.

Santek kaaan? Ha mai la datang umah.

My friend's. Mine is hideous. I got D or E for Art. So you know..

Our definition of Facebook. Korang ada ke?

Ok.Mysore that still make me feel in awe with India. What you see on the road is different everyday. It is just that we are too busy to observe the things around us because we have unnecessary things going on in our head. Kan? Jadi baby lagi bagus. I read somewhere that if you want to be happy try to feel amaze by something simple. Macam tengok bintang. or tengok bunga. And I believe it's true. =)

Now moving on to Hospital action!! Wehuuuu!!

The final year students were busy taking case history. And I was busy snapping photos here and there.

Well yeah. It need to be done secretly. Mana tau ada cikgu ke kat dalam tu. So I was hiding behind my notebook. Secretlah sangat kan?

This is a female surgery ward. The floor is not that clean but what choice do we have? Kalau pen jatuh kena letak sanitizer. Tapi beg??

Lobby. Duduk bersila at the corner next to the stairs is a normal thing hey.

Outpatient Department. A bit boring because we had to stand for hours and even there were patients, I was not able to understand them. I have to learn Kannada. A must.

The same. with more people sitting around waiting for their turns.

Classic, eh? Fit for filming a ghost story or thriller kinda movies. Takyah letak effect extra-extra. Jimat. Ada cerita tamil paling mahal baru keluar. Semua boleh pegi dolod. Rajnikanth berlakon. XD

Tempat cuci tangan lepas pegang-pegang sana sini. Since I am only in the third term, takde canlah lagi nak pegang-pegang. Berani pun tak.

Lame attempt to snap unknowingly with crowds of people. Even standing in the middle of the lobby, cold stares were everywhere.

If you need blood transfusion, you need to pay for it. I mean, pay for the blood. Buy the blood. Nothing is free here madam.

Secretly snapping behind the curtain. The other side was a room full of doctors and professors. I'll be dead if they caught me doing this during OPD.

I forgot to snap the male surgery wards. I am telling you the smell was unbearable sometimes and the sight was never pretty. Too many ulcer cases and scrotal swelling. Working here will be a good practice for your patience, so they say.

After watching these two bunnies, I miss my hamsters the late Radhu, Karpet and their only two surviving boys who turned gay ( since Mummy didn't want to buy a female hamster anymore)

Ok peeps. I think that's all for now. Later I will snap the OBG wards and all. And around Mysore too. Mysore banyak Mat Sallehs lately. Datang untuk Yoga kot. Should I snap them too?

Life is short alright.

2010-09-30T13:06:00.000+05:30

Salaam Alaik

Sometimes when I read of how people really stand to what they really believe in, I feel like I am an ignorant who lives in her world caring less for other people. I want to be that person who cares, and stood tall of my opinion, of my faith but I feel that I just failed. I think my life is too important for all those things. I think what I eat today matters more to me. I think too much of my own comfort than those who are more unfortunate than I am.

I feel really selfish at times when I see friends that give their amount of time and hard work for their passion, be it in the work,study or religion wise as I toss the thought away and thinking I have a better life than doing all those stuff. Caring more of what I am feeling,wearing, eating makes me feel like a loser at times. Seriously.

My time is short. Why do I feel this world is much more important than the other one?

What should I do now?

Bummer bummer bummer.

2010-09-26T17:05:00.001+05:30

Salaam Alaik

I am tired at screaming and yelling all day. Not that I am doing anything sporty or any kind of that sort.

Oh well, that is what I do best anyway.

Time to stuff some food and compensate those calories burnt due to screaming. Yeah, screaming burns some calories. So shut up.

Ta.

Tipulah tak pernah ponteng kelas.

2010-09-22T13:27:00.000+05:30

Salaam Alaik

I thought after going back for Raya, it will trigger the eagerness to learn more. Apparently it did not. Still the mood of lazying around looks far more interesting than those ever so thick book that I don't know when it will be opened and read. Sad isn't it?

And I miss my family so suddenly. and the friends too.

And Facebook does not look that interesting somehow and so is this blog.

And I get moody too often but I come around quickly though.

And I don't really understand what the teacher is saying in class and have to listen REALLY hard to make out what they are saying. or i'll just go and bother my friends next to me.

And Mysore is getting really hot which is a bit weird as we are supposed to be heading to winter. Global warming very much maybe?

OK I am off to class now. Ta.

I am bloated.

2010-09-18T22:27:00.000+05:30

Salaam Alaik

Hello peeps. It seems the cows in India are much much larger than the ones back in Malaysia. And most of the cows have these long sharp horns and they are mostly black and white. They like to dig through the garbage from what I noticed. And yeah, they practically rule the road.

This one is HUGE! honestly.

and it was next to a bank I withdrew my money from.

Anyhoo,

it was nice having a get together with all Malaysians here. We are small in number alright but we get along very well I must say. It's like having a second family when the real ones are so far away from you.

I am bloated and sleepy and happy and content. Good Night folks.

Rayalah.

2010-09-12T06:49:00.000+05:30

Salaam Alaik

Saaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaad =(

Having to go back to Mysore makes me feel saaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaad.. This is saaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaad..

Anyhow,

Have a great Raya everyone. Mine was a blast somehow. It is just a bit sad as Nagela Lohson is not around. Hence the family ain't complete.

Ampun maaf dipinta atas segala kesalahan. Sama ada yang nyata, tak nyata, sengaja atau tak sengaja.Those who sms'ed me, I am very sorry too for not replying. Calling Nagela Lohson until it went out of credit. Thanks anyway for still remembering me.

Excuse the messiness of Nenek's room and that little boy is Siddiq, my baby cousin. And can you spot the not? teeheehee..

Note to self.note to self.note to self.

2010-08-31T23:31:00.000+05:30

Salaam Alaik

Hmmm..how to say this eh? I am having a major embarrassment right now. For the past 2 hours actually. So you guys knew about my plan going back this Raya right? And I have been telling EVERYONE I am going back like 2-3 days before Raya.. But my friend came up with a plan of going back earlier like 3 days before the supposed date due to "the availability of going back early" if you know what I mean, and I immediately agree with the idea, so to speak.

So, I called up Dad that evening and telling him about my plan and all, asking his permission to go back early because HE is the one,after all going to pay all the extra expenses for the change of flight.. and Dad said OK but let's make this a surprise to Mum. I am, of course simply excited and delighted of the thought. So I agreed and did everything need to be done for the date change.

BUT here comes the blunder.

Dad was asking me to mail the itinerary to him. I did that almost immediately I confirmed my seat but the problem was I didn't send it to Dad's mail directly but instead I sent it to a Yahoogroup whereby me,my sisters, my Dad and my Mum and not to forget, the pakciks and makciks of my neighbourhood are the members. So my itinerary with the statement of I am going back this Saturday with the "mwahs" intending to be for my father was sent to the group. Omaigod. The embarrassment! I feel like burying my head under the sand right now. =(

and yeah, it is no longer a surprise for Mum. I kept the secret only for a day it seems. *sigh*

indeed indeed.

Jadi Ayah, tahun ni tak payah raya BSS.. Jom raya Damansara!

A small update for ibuayahakakangahadek

2010-08-29T22:52:00.002+05:30

Salaam Alaik

My flu is no where near better, my cough seems getting worse and my mouth ulcer is not killing me anymore.

Other than that, I cannot wait to be back home and celebrate Raya with the family. Miss you guys loads!

= )

Mood melankolik dan mengantuk sikit2

2010-08-18T17:40:00.001+05:30

Salaam Alaik

So I thought about writing something but nothing came out right the way I wanted it to be. Trust me there are lots to be talking about once you stepped your foot here but to tell them the rightful way seems hard on me. I don't know why. Life is the usual, not pretty hectic for the first week of schooling. I have not open a single book yet to read. I guess I am still caught up in the holiday mood. Well, from what I heard this term is going to be one joyful relaxing term. So I am cherishing it as long as I can.

Nohara went missing. It was a bit depressing. tapi nak buat macam mana..takde rezeki. Kalau jumpa balik, pasti riang gembira. Dah cuba dah Aten punya doa hilang barang tapi dah omos seminggu pun tak nampak kelibat Nohara. What to do.. what to do..

OT was a bit depressing too. I hope I will find the solution once I am back in Malaysia. The hospital is beyond words. I cannot describe it to you as you have to see it for yourself. Later lah, when I have the guts to snap the pictures and all, I'll try to do so and show you guys how does it looks like.. I saw rectal examination too today. It was not fun seeing one poking the other's butt when you are fasting. Poor people. In pain and embarrassment but again, what can you do.. it's a charity and a teaching hospital.. That is the price to pay.

Anyway, toodles all. May we have a blessed Ramadhan~

Hari pertama ke sekolah.. Bolehlah..

2010-08-09T20:24:00.000+05:30

Salaam Alaik

Like a kid's first day at school, mine was pretty much the same i.e the anticipation, the butterfly (sikit-sikitlah). But I cannot help myself from dozing off few minutes before my posting ended. My roll number has changed from 78 to 51. That's a long way,isn't it? Second year is different than the previous because starting this year, we are being posted to the hospital. My first posting is Surgery. So these 2 months I will be going to the OT and the surgical ward. I just had my first glimpse of the ward earlier this morning. Yeah, it was not a pretty sight. Or the smell either. But this week we will just be doing only classes in the morning. I just had my measurement done for the scrubs and that require them 2 weeks to finish it off.

Being out here made my head aches terribly. Even as I wrote this, my head is still throbbing endlessly. Maybe I will go to sleep early today. I personally think Mysore has a nice weather but not a very nice surrounding. You know, the honking, the smoke and all are what made my head aches non-stop for today. Even the first day, the auto drivers still want to mess with us. I will adapt somehow I know. Hey, I survived for a year here. Despite having to share one small washing machine and a one-door fridge for the 18 of us, I must say we've been doing pretty darn good.

Anyhow, Ramadhan is coming. I hope mine will be better than the last. Ameen.

p/s: I miss everyone back home. Do you miss me? hee